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Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Face it, people! Don't be a chicken.

I haven't been up here, renewing this blog for quite some time. Things come up, travelling, working, moving house and the start of a whole new semester is making me a bit dizzy... Today, at this time I decided to just talk about something that every Chinese SPM student in Malaysia are talking about and the dilemma they are facing right at this moment. I can type in Chinese and it is really better for me to do so but I want the nation to know (even for those who does not know Chinese, parents in particular) the importance of Chinese language.



I came across this online newspaper title on FB and I acknowledged the dilemma and hardship that SPM Chinese students are going through , especially those who are planning to take Chinese as one of the subjects. I gone through that, that is why I totally understand how one feels when it comes to this issue.

Malaysia, just like a lot of places in the world are having a merit based education system. Everyone is always asking, "How many A's you got for PMR/SPM?" ; "Which school are you graduated from?" ; "How is your result in school?" and so on. This education system is putting pressure on students in this nation to get a certificate and a result slip which shows "straight A's". It is encouraging in a way as student would work very hard to score for a better result, but at the same time it is discouraging as students, though scoring "straight A's" would be incompetent besides studying.

As for Chinese, it is undeniably one of the hardest subject in SPM. In fact, it is THE killing subject for those who want to score straight A's or to pass all subjects. Paper are getting tougher and tougher each and every year and many Chinese students dump Chinese because it would affect the overall result. What makes things worse is the attitude of parents who look so much into results and encourage their kids to dump this subject just for the sake of getting straight A's.

I was a 2010 SPM leaver and I was contented with my result. Before I start, let me just bring you on a tour of Chinese in my life. I was born in a family whereby my dad is a so-called "banana" and he doesn't speak a word of Chinese. My mom, though a Chinese educated person used to talk to my brother and I in English. 4 years later, I was admitted into a kindergarten where I started to learn Chinese. As a matter of fact, I did not do well for my Chinese and neither did my brother. When I was 6, my dad decided got me registered into a quite prestigious SK(at least it was in my hometown). My mom, she re-registered my name in a SJK(C) after knowing it and insisted us studying Chinese till SPM. 
Seriously, I did really bad for my Chinese even up till UPSR. I was so lucky to get a pretty grades for my UPSR and went into the one and only Chinese government high school (SMJK) in my hometown. I started picking up the hobby of reading and writing novels when I was in high school to improve my Chinese. It was a big leap when we need to start learning old Chinese languages and it was a bigger struggle when I went to Form 4 where we need to translate old Chinese into modern Chinese language.
My brother was facing the same problem and the idea of dumping Chinese always crossed our mind as we know that we need to get a good result to "survive". At that time, my mom insisted us on taking Chinese and my dad who doesn't read and write(though learned to speak after years of listening to our conversation) encouraged us to not give up on Chinese. In the end, I took up tuition, handed in articles, wrote novels, blogging, read more Chinese novels and finally I made it. 
I got 9As out of 10 subject in my SPM and the only B+ is not Chinese. In fact, I got an A- for my Chinese. 

Students and parents nowadays never find a way out, everyone just wants to get the easy way out and dump Chinese for SPM. Yes, one might say that it doesn't affect much by dumping Chinese but it doesn't affect much either picking up Chinese as one of the subject.
Malays, Indians, Europeans, Americans and so many other races in the world now are learning Chinese. I have friends who are 100% English- educated begging us(those who know Chinese) to teach them how to speak, read and write. 
From the global economy point of view, China is developing rapidly and it might one day monopolize the whole economy. Though English is THE language in communicating, don't you think having one more language in hand is in a more advantage position?

Sorry to say but I was never proud to say that I scored for my English in SPM because I think English is the very basic and we are bound to do well for it. As for Chinese, I am proud up till today that I have one more language in hand. It may had affect my overall grades for SPM but I never regretted for taking up Chinese. I'm glad that both my parents insisted me in learning Chinese. 

Chinese, just as other language is not a formula or something dead. It represents a culture and a developing mindset of the people. The history of Chinese is dated back almost 4000 years, and it had evolve in such a way to be more reader-friendly. If you look into the language and get your passion out of it, you will see find a whole new universe in it. Chinese is not about memorizing all the points and vomit it out in exam to score an A, it is about the understanding, the appreciation, the application to go around the whole language and to make it look pretty. Just because our education system is as such where people looks at your result, by scoring a B for Chinese does not ruin the certificate. It may not be essential for college or universities application, one who take Chinese would definitely stands a better chance of getting a job in the future.

Unlike other subjects, Chinese is THE subject where most Chinese students fear of. Same goes to parents when they dreamed of their genius scoring brilliant results for SPM but with a flawed B in Chinese. Think of the good side, scoring a B gives you a better chance of getting a job in the future; getting an A tells people how strong your kids are in facing the toughest subject and still breakthrough. 

So for those SPM candidates who are still in a dilemma, my advice is GO FOR IT! Do not be afraid of not scoring well, learn to love the subject and do not neglect it just because it is assumed to be not as important as other core subjects. Do not leave it aside just because it is hard and "people say it's hard to score". Try you best and face it. DON'T BE A CHICKEN!! You'll not regret it.

Disclaimer: The above blog post is only of personal point of view, it has nothing to do with anyone besides my self. Totally based on self-opinions and experience as a SPM leaver who did well(I do not know if A- is considered well for you) in Chinese language. 



Thursday, June 20, 2013

一个人的行李 Sole Luggage

Thank you for tuning in to Feelings FM, I'm your Feelings DJ, Ivy.
Today's post will be bilingual, but anyway the content will still be the same... ^^

OK, the song I chose tonight would be a Chinese Song, Sole Luggage by Penny Tai.
Why I chose this song? 
Finally, after months of waiting I'm going to disappear for about 3 days...
Yeap, it's my getaway!




This is the first time I would be travelling alone, starting from a very small and nearby country..
Singapore, HERE I COME! 
Though the haze is terrible at the moment, I can't wait to see the land.

Everything's done and I'm going off soon~ Wish me luck and see you guys on Monday or Tuesday~

大家好,我是你们的心情DJ——艾微。今天的部落格文章是以双语呈现,但是呢内容是一样的……
今天的心情点播是戴佩妮的《一个人的行李》。
为什么?因为苦苦等待了几个月,我终于可以消失!
哈哈!
这是我第一次一个人旅行,一个人看世界……
新加坡!我来啦!哈哈哈哈!
这几天一直听见星加坡的烟霾情况似乎越来越严重,但是不管如何……
心里还是普通普通的,毕竟是第一次一个人旅行,
东西check! 咱下星期一或星期二见咯!


Saturday, June 15, 2013

只有自己可以给于自己的正能量


哈咯!大家好,我是你们心情DJ——艾微。
看会最后一片部落格文章才发现自己好久、好久、好久没有更新了……
哈哈!前一阵子忙于考试都没有时间上网,现在考完试了所以来更更呗!

最近我爱上了一首歌曲:David Guetta ft. Sia 的 Titanium。
这一首歌可以说是我的正能量的来源……为什么?看看它的歌词吧!什么是Titanium?就是华语所谓的“钛”
这一首歌的歌词很贴近我们现实社会的情形,就像是说一个人对于别人的闲言闲语、讽刺嘲笑都免疫了……
俗话说:“人言可畏。”、“一传十,十传百,百传千,千传万。”但是也有人说:“嘴巴是生在别人身上,你管他说什么?”

我们的身边总是会有那么一些人,从来不会给与正面的影响。相反的,他们却想要看见你堕落而不断给你负面的影响。他们会故意讽刺你、刺伤你,而我们身为受害者当然大多时候就会被刺痛、被伤害。
这一首歌就把这一些负面的对话当成是子弹,而受害者是一个非常坚强的人……即使再多的讽刺和闲言闲语,他都不会动摇……那一些子弹射在他身上就会反弹……这就像是一个宣战:来吧!你们尽管说,你们那一些要伤害我的人都发射你们的子弹吧!而我绝对不会受伤害……

其实很多时候,我们会为了那一些事情而伤心、烦恼……但是这一些心情唯独自己超越了自己才可以渐渐免疫……
我们必须找到自己的正能量,因为那一些正能量只有自己才可以给自己的……
我总是忍着不说,忍着不哭因为那一些根本没有办法解决问题。但是我的缺点就是到一定的时候,我会爆发……以前的我爆发的时候会听一些伤心的歌曲,让自己更难过地哭个痛快……但是现在,我不想哭了……哭,是个懦弱的表现……我爆发的时候,就听这一首歌……听听歌词……
这就是我。这是只有我自己可以给于自己的正能量……

最后,附上这首歌的歌词:
Titanium- David Guetta ft. Sia

You shout it loud, but I can't hear a word you say,
I'm talking loud, not saying much.
I'm criticized, but all your bullet ricochet,
You shoot me down, but I get up.

*I'm bullet proof, nothing to lose,
fire away, fire away,
Ricochet, you take your aim,
Fire away, fire away.

@You shoot me down but I won't fall,
I am titanium.
Shoot me down but I won't fall,
I am titanium.

Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, stick and stones may break my bones,
I'm talking loud, not saying much

Repeat *@

Stone hard, machine gun,
Fired at the ones who's run,
Stone hard, as bulletproof glass

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Sometimes that one person is more than enough...


Good evening, and I'm you Feelings FM DJ... As usual, Ivy.
The song of the day would be... Here, I Dreamed A Dream from Les Miserables, violin cover by Jun Sung Ahn. I hope you like it... It is a beautifully played song...

Today's theme as stated above and I know not much people are interested when they see my title since it's not like the others post... FOOD~ OKOK, chill.. Wait till I find something special then I'll do some food review again... I can't be posting MCD food review right? Haha.

Anyway, some thoughts have been bugging me these few days. Guess is the weather? Or maybe the stress coming up for exams? Or maybe I'm thinking too much? Well, I really do not know which is which really... I've been feeling quite EMO for the past two weeks and I still cannot get over it. I wonder why but I think I know the reason... I'm too dependent on others...

I saw a post from my friend's blog: Moi et N'importe Quo... Although the title is in French, but trust me... The content is mostly in English. Well, basically I saw this post and I smiled... Because at least there is someone I know who are not really close with me knows me better than my good friends do. I'm not trying to compare here but yeah... He still understands it albeit not much who I really am. 

Things have been quite bad for me these few weeks. Due to stress in examination and my own thinking, I get all the mood sways out of nowhere. This moment I can be super active, next moment my feeling was like sliding down the cliff. I do not know who I really am in my surroundings now as I don't seem to fit in after... well, almost one and a half years. Loneliness is always there and I shouldn't be showing and telling it to anyone but myself. 

Sometimes, we just need someone to talk to but it's just that no one is there. I just look up and saw that my friends are all ahead of me and I'm still taking my slow step behind. People think differently and people judge others differently. I'm not really the welcomed type of person and usually, people would just hate me from the very first moment they saw me. I just portray myself as being arrogant, maybe? 

Today, I posted a status on FB: "Sometimes loneliness makes you realize who you really are and what your surrounding look like... and then makes you feel that you rather be lonely..."

That's what came across my mind at that very moment. I'm afraid of a lot of things and I'm actually a big coward. I like extreme sports because that's the only way I can get hurt and reminds me that I'm actually still alive with all the things around me and to be contented of everything. I'm scared but I cannot find another way to push away the fright I have in me... 

I do not expect anyone to understand what I'm going through for two reasons:
1. Every individuals have their own thinking and no one would understand what others are going through.
2. Me, myself do not know what and why I'm having all the emo moments and loneliness and sadness.
No one understands and no one will... Sometimes I just feel sad for no reason or maybe there is a reason and I do not know why. 

And so, this should end because everyone would get bored and think that I'm a paranoid or so. The one thing that I always tell myself is no one will pity you and no one will be there when problem arises. The most trustworthy person is you and yourself. But sometimes that one person who understands would be more than enough and I'm glad that he described it well... Yes, I am active and lively from the outside but at the inside I'm a sentimental person... 

Well, life's never easy... Tomorrow is a new day and it means a new start. Neh?

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

A trip to Cupcakes Wonderland--- WonderMilk

Good evening, peeps~! Once again, it's me on Ivy @ Feelings FM... I'm your DJ (duh~!) and my name is Ivy~~~~
OK, I don't know when this blog became a food review thing since it doesn't fit my blog name... In fact, I should be talking about feelings instead of FOOD~~
But since everyone likes food right? and I love them too... So I decided along the way I'll share my feelings and expedition I'm going through in KL and of course here and there I'm gonna introduce you guys to some FOOD in KL which I've been to. Although they might not be the best but there would be someone out there who would love it, right?

Let's start. On Saturday, I was sitting in the library studying(Exam is soooo near~!!!) with a few others and suddenly this guy, Ka Vui on the right said this, "I'm craving for Rainbow Cupcakes..."

My head shot up when I heard cupcakes... OK, I'm a big fans for sweet stuffs especially cakes~!! So I was like, "What is rainbow cupcake?"

He thought for a while before answering but basically he said, "The cake is in rainbow colour and tasted like Mat Kool rainbow flavor ice-cream."

I'm like... WOAH~! "Colourings?"

"I asked the guy there, they say its not colouring."

"Awesome. I feel like getting a bite on it... Tomorrow is a Sunday, why not we go then?"

So on Sunday, we met up in the library at 10.00... I was late though... XD
Anyway, we met up at the library and Jewen was there so after cracking our heads on how to get to that place, Jewen volunteered to drive. So we departed, 4 of us... We reached the place called WonderMilk and I think it's quite a famous place because it was quite full even at 11am...

So here we are:
WonderMilk... I was overwhelmed with how they set up their shop as the furnitures they used are very unique. Even from the outside, there are tables and chairs which are made of crates... I was stupified when I stepped into the store itself.

The furnitures are very special and it brings out a very warm feeling. This is not acutally a pure cupcake shop but rather I would term it as a cafe. And it is one which I always wanted in my life. I dreamed of owning such a cafe. With the warm lightings and the nice smell of cupcakes and coffee with the mixture of milk. People having their meals happily, smiling and chatting away... Well, we checked on the price board and decided to get the 12 box set and everyone would have 4 since Shin Li didn't want it. So we picked and picked and picked...

When we first saw the cupcake, we were like... So small a?! Well, we're shocked because when Ka Vui describe to us and did the hand gesture it was quite big... And Ee Teng thought it was slices of cakes and I thought it would be something like a muffin... Anyway, we just got the cupcakes and settled down while I looked around the shop and took photos of the environment here.

These are the cupcake we chose...
First row from left: Oreo, Rainbow, Rainbow, Rainbow
Second Row: Blueberry, Cheesy Cheese, Choc Mint, Oreo
Third Row: Choc Mint, Oreo, (Not sure), rainbow

Well, the cupcakes are OK... It would be fine for sweet lovers but trust me, they are very sweet...
In fact, Ka Vui and Jewen ordered coffee and milk... I heard the milk is really good. I'll give it a try the next time round.
So basically the cupcakes cost RM4.50 each and for a box of 12, it costs RM50.
They sell in one then a set of four, eight, twelve and sixteen I guess...


 OK, so this picture above includes four photos. The first one is some weird animal body thing... The second one is a clock, with WM on it, not sure it meant West Malaysia or World Map... But the pictures on the other side of the board are some drinks in their shop.

The third picture is some cabinets where they put some greens... And the last one is basically the decorations beside the cabinet... See the BAKE word and also the world map...

This photo on the left is some other pictures I took regarding the furnitures. The upper left one is a small corner underneath the cabinet. I wanted to take that place when I saw it... I really love the small wooden table and small chairs. It makes the small corner there looks very cosy... The upper right is another set of table outside the shop. The chair are crates basically.

The lower left one is what I think most unique of all in the whole shop. Can you guys see the picture? Guess what it is make from? The tops of the table and chairs are of course make of planks and woods but the rack itself is made of unused pipes. Creative I would say... And the last pic on the bottom right is a small shelf beside the cashier selling postcards. The design of the postcards are nice and worth RM1 each.
This picture above was 2 pictures I really love... The wall and WM below the clock... Nothing special but I love them for no reason.

 On your left is the menu and numbering they used in the shop. Everything is handwritten and the message on the numbering is interesting. They included their Wifi password there itself and trust me, the password is as cute as the shop.

So basically I did not have breakfast that day and my tummy started growling. After checking the menu, I decided to try out one of the sandwiches---- Mushroom Melt.

I never expected anything much since it's mushrooms and it's normal. I paid and waited and soon the sandwich was served...




And yeap, this bread on my right is the sandwich I ordered. There are mushrooms fillings (DUH~) and of course the secret recipe out of everything... THe all time favorite----- CHEESE~!!!

I took a bite and WOAH~! Never expected to taste THAT awesome and I meant it. It's even better than the cupcakes. If there is a rating, I would give 5/5 for this sandwich over here. Best taste for sandwich ever tasted.

Those who like mushroom, this is a must try. Trust me, you would not regret. Well, but for a sandwich this is a bit expensive... It costs RM10.90 for this. The sandwich will come with some raw veges and also potato salad. So it's quite filling for lunch or breakfast or even for brunch.


So these are the people I went to WonderMilk with... My course mates and ex-course mate
From left: Shin Li (so proud to have a Bruneian friend who is a NERD~ XD); Jewen (The guy who brought me to pasar malam and give me a lift back every night); and the suggestor, Ka Vui...


So this pretty girl who is holding the cup cake is Ee Teng. (Pretty right?) and the crazy girl sitting sideway would be the one and only ME, your DJ tonight and many more nights--- Ivy~
So, before we depart from the shop... We took a photo of everyone with my Samsung Galaxy S3 2.0 megapixels front camera... So from left: Shin Li, Jewen, Ka Vui, Ee Teng and finally, me~!

Have a nice trip there for those who are interested. They have 3 outlets actually... The one went to is +WonderMilk Damansara Uptown. Yes, we went all the way to Damansara from Brickfields for cupcakes.
There are two more outlets situated at Citta Mall and Publika Shopping Gallery...

For more info, feel free to check out their webpage:

+Wondermilk (http://www.ilovewondermilk.com/Wondermilk/I_Love_Wondermilk/I_Love_Wondermilk.html)

Well, that's all for today... And Good Night peeps~!

Friday, March 15, 2013

Jom, let's go on a Food Hunt~!



Hello everybody. A very good evening to all of you once again. Thank you for tuning into Feelings FM and I'm your Blogspot DJ this evening... I bet you guys know me already, I'm Ivy.

The general rule is that in every blog post I'll prepare a Song of the Day for you guys and tonight there's no exception. The Song of the Day, let me see... Oh, It's "Losing Your Memory" by Ryan Star. Just in case you do not know, it's actually the Soundtrack from Vampire Diaries.




Before we go into the main issue, which I know everyone loves it-------FOOD~~~~ Hold your horses because there is someone whom I want to introduce you guys to. He is the main character today so you can't miss it.

OK, see this guy over here? Hello, look here~~~ Ah, yes... Now I got your attention. He's is the guy I was talking about. The reason why I say he's the main character today is because without him, I won't be able to go for the Food Hunt. Oh, this guy over here... He's my course mate, a new pal named Jewen. Nice guy, quiet and always sitting alone near the wall...

So basically, everything starts like this. This morning is a usual morning... waking up, shower, brush my teeth... Go to class. So at 1 o clock after class is over we went over to the library to study. Of course, having lunch first then to the library.

Time flies and when we noticed it, it was already 6pm... So instead of finding food near my college which apparently no significance of good food, he suggested that we just head over to my area since it's Thursday and there is a night market there.

The initial plan was to stay up till 10pm in the library(it was a deal) but besides mental strain, we're wondering where to find food... So we packed at 7.30 and set off to the night market nearby my area--- Sri Rampai Night Market.

OK, for those who are overseas who doesn't understand my title... Jom is the malay word for "let's go" and in Malaysia, we term night markets as "Pasar Malam". Well, everyone knows the fact that if you want food... Best place to get? You just gonna get them from pasar malam.

So off we go and we had a really hard time finding a parking space. The parking lot was quite dark and quiet at night although it's just beside the pasar malam but anyway, we got a place and he looked at his car and looked at me... Finally he blurted, "I hope my doors will still be here when we come back." And I gave him a "I understand" look and answered, "I was hoping to see the wheels are still here."

He laughed and both of us head for the night market. Not sure about the night markets in overseas but for Malaysia, definitely it would be along a street and outdoor... Those who are bagpacking in Malaysia, you wouldn't want to miss a chance of visiting the pasar malam here. Anyway, back to the point... We walked and all I can see are FOOD~!! I know, I attracted your attention... Chill~~

OK, first I had two sticks of fishball... One curry flavor and one more Tom Yam Flavor. How does it taste? Spicy... Jewen got himself a curry flavor fish ball and a squid... Did not take photo for this one because I finished it in 2 minutes before I remembered that I need to take a photo of it... The price: RM1 for each fishball stick and RM2 for the squid stick. Anyway, the ratings:
Taste              : ★★★☆☆
Appearance   : ★★★☆☆
Creativity       : ★★★☆☆
Overall           : ★★★☆☆

Then, we moved to the next stall where I saw my favorite food--- Sweet potato! This is cute because they make it into balls and fry them... So I call them Sweet Potato Balls~~~ This is not a highlight, it's OK. Taste normal... Suitable for kids though because it's sweet... ^^ The price: RM 4 per packet with approx 10-15 balls.
Taste             : ★★☆☆☆
Appearance   : ★★★☆☆
Creativity      : ★★★☆☆
Overall         : ★★☆☆☆ (2.5/5)

Next~! Let's see... OK, this~!!! Chang Chang~!!
I KNow this looks weird but it taste awesome~!! It's call Osaka Teppanyaki... Give it a try if you see it anywhere. There's cucumber and egg and some vege. The taste of mayonnaise completed the taste of the whole thing.  It's something like a pancake and trust me, it's awesome~ I would get another one the next time I visit this pasar malam. By the way, there's 2 flavors: Chicken and Seafood. RM 5,90 for chicken and RM6,90 for Seafood. 
Taste            : ★★★★☆ 
Appearance  : ★★★☆☆
Creativity      : ★★★★☆
Overall         : ★★★★☆

Next, what more? OK, let's get a drink first... I'm thirsty from doing all the talking... 

This is recommended by Jewen. He brought me to this stall and tell me that this is a must try? So I listened since he's the expert... Well, I did not regret that. It's cooling and really, this is just nice for a hot day. THere are six ingredients in the drink I guess because the name is something like Six Gold Cooling Tea or something? So yeah~ Each of us got a packet and according to him, if we have it there...We would get a quill egg inside the drink... Well, it's over but I'm still trying to figure out what's the ingredients:
1. Barley
2. Longan Meat
3. Bak Hup
4. Lin Zi
5. Bak Go
I'm not sure how far I'm true but I guess these are in... Anyway, it's RM 3.30 per packet. You have the choice of having cold or hot. 
Rating:
Taste            : ★★★★★
Appearance  : ★★★★☆
Creativity      : ★★★☆☆
Overall         : ★★★★☆

Next, we took continue the walk again. Let's see, what's next... Oh, this... I got attracted to this when I was walking along the stalls. It's something cute and special. They call it Cheese Potato.Well, I ordered the Hawaii Flavor and Jewen also got the Black Pepper chicken flavor... Each cost RM5. Mine basically contains of Broccoli, pineapple, ham and corns. For Cheese lovers, you must taste this... The cheese will be spread all over the fried potato and the other ingredients in it... All I can say is that it is heaven for Cheese Lovers. Here it is:

Ratings as below:
Taste           : ★★★★★
Appearance : ★★★★★
Creativity     : ★★★★★
Overall        : ★★★★★
Last food of the day, which is sort of normal and can be seen almost everywhere. This we call it Chicken Nuggets or Popcorn Chicken. This cost RM6. Well, nothing much to explain bout this because it's just normal fried chicken with chili pepper powder on it... Ratings first then the pic. 
Taste           : ★★☆☆☆ 
Appearance : ★★☆☆☆
Creativity     : ★★☆☆☆
Overall        : ★★☆☆☆

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That ends the Food HUnt today. It was fun after the stress of studying 6 hours in the library. And Jewen who doesn't speak Mandarin tried his level best to communicate with the seller there... Good job, Jewen. And Thank you for the bringing me there. 

PS: Can't really tell where the place is, but it is just one street beside the Jabatan Imigresen where you guys make passport and ICs.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Ready, Set, GO~!

A very pleasant night to those who are reading or wanting to read my blog. As usual, I'm your Feelings FM DJ, Ivy. Tonight's song would be Stay by Rihanna:


It had not been quite my time recently. I have been wandering around the maze of life trying to get hold of something which I do not know what it is actually.








I took this picture last week when I was on my way back into my condo in KL

When I saw this light shining through the gaps between the pillars, I stood there and look at the sunlight. It was very dazzling but at that very moment, it was like something to me. Something which I've always been searching for.

Since I came to KL, things have not been getting on smoothly. First I was ditched by my only friend in KL for I don't know whatever reason; Then I end up being antisocial in class, staying up all alone. Next I slacked in my studies... So it goes on and on...

In fact, things had been really depressing lately when exams are coming in 57 days and my room mate can never stop annoying me.

Well, I should say from this I learnt some real and true friends. I had a talk with my mom and she gave me another option but I hesitated. It's not that I like KL, in fact I never liked KL... But my friends here, the lecturers here... Those are the reason which makes my want to stay.

I remember one of my friend saying, "Ivy, don't go la!"
I remember one of my course mate saying, "You wanna transfer a? Why?"
I remember one of my bro saying: "You sure ah?"
I remember one of them saying: "As long as the problem is solved, you don't have to move right?"

A few of them volunteered to look out for rooms for me. I even met someone who told me today, "If it's really annoying, you can come over my place to study. My room mate is off till end of this month for study break so no problem. Just give me a text any time."
To say the truth, I'm touched and happy and glad and contented that I meet them.

I was such an antisocial person until I came into this class and I started having more and more friends. Some are Hi Bye friends, some I never talk to, some are study mates but nevertheless every one of them treat me well. I never regretted meeting them. I never regretted open up my heart and feelings to them.

I'm really sorry for the stress I've been through. Breaking down is so NOT ME, but I did last week in class itself. Some of them saw it but they gave me some support and ya, it was really helpful.

Today's status on FB:
I thank all my friends and course mates (this is targeted to them but here I add on, my parents and family) who are concerned about what I'm going through. Thank you for giving me advice and finding an alternative way for me to study under these undesirable circumstances. And I thank HER sincerely for inviting me over to study when it's convenient. Thank you so much. I'll try my best for the exam. Let's fight.

I learnt something... I learnt that there are people who hates me and there are people who loves me for who I am. I do not have to waste time on those who hates me... All I need to do is to appreciate those who loves me, those who supported me, those who accept me for who I am and what I do. Even one day things might change, there is still a 'once upon a time' leaving in my memories within...

Now it's time to get ready for a total boost and rush for examinations. 57 days to go and counting. Let's get ready. Let's pass our exams and meet again next year. Let's finish the whole course and graduate together!

ON YOUR MARK, READY, SET.... GO!!!

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

PAINTBALL ON THE GO~!!

A very good evening to all of you who are reading my blog...
I'm your DJ for this evening, Ivy.
So, tonight's theme would be the very first step to my 'Let My Arenaline Rush' Plan.

OK, things start this way... 
2 weeks ago, I sort of went into a total stress and depression mode due to the upcoming exams which is in say... 65 days? *OMG, that is so close~ I'm gonna fail man...
BUt anyway, since it's nothing to do with those who are not sitting for the exam, there is no point stressing you guys out... So, me and my classmate were having this conversation in class one fine afternoon before class starts:

Me: "I feel like going for Bungee Jumping." 
Duncan: "Why do you wanna go BUngee Jumping?"
Me: "Too stress, just to release my stress. Wanna come? RM75 in SUnway Lagoon."
Duncan: "WHat?! You are using RM75 to buy gravity? One jump, 2 seconds, RM75?"
Me: "Ya?"
Duncan: "WHy not I buy you a rope and tie your leg and let you jump off from one of the condo in KL? It's free."
Me: "That's not the point."
Duncan: "Cummon! Do something else."
Me: "I really love all this games... I wanna go for BUngee Jumping, Go Carting, Abselin, Flying Fox, Paintball, Lazer Skirmish..."
Duncan: "You seriously wanna go for paintball?"
Another classmate who is sitting behind of us, Mark responded: "I heard paintball. Are we going for paintball?"
Duncan: "We can organize if you guys want."
And so.... This event starts...

So we basically gathered information about paintball fields and the charges... And Duncan set up an event group on Facebook recruiting members of our coursemates to join. Things goes well excepts with some glitch (Well, expected right?) but it turn out quite well and we'll officially starts our story here!

At first we  plan to meet at BAC (Brickfields Asia College, i.e: the college we're studying) and Duncan will pick me and another 2 people from there. I was late but anyway I reached and he called and said, "Hey, Ivy... THere's a block there. The police don't allow me to cross, can you come to BAC2?" 
So me, Prab and Jie Jiun walked to BAC2 and hop on... Anyway, we weren't really late when we reached the place... Walah, It's TAG Paintball at Taman Desa. THe exact location cannot be found on Google Map, so my advice, type this on your GPS if you were to go: Taman Desa Waterpark. It's the same way but it's a very old 4 stories parking beside the waterpark.

So basically when we reached there we started waiting up till 3.15 when we started briefing. They explained Capture the Flag MOde, Team Death and also Terminator(play till the pellets finish)
But in the end we only played the Team Death and Terminator
During the game, adrenaline rush to the very peak. THis is even so when you saw your opponent running around and you hear shooting all around. THe pain when you got shot is intense but it does not last for long. It might bruises you but at the very moment, you feel alive. After all the stress and hectic life in the city, this is one way that will really relaxes your mind. 
NO thought will go through the mind except to survive the game and to shoot down your opponent. 

At the very end, we still have some bullets left so we went on a 1 vs 1 game. This game pushes the thrill to the max. The first round was Duncan vs Prab... The second round was me vs Jian. 
THe sweat after the game really refreshes the mind, and the moment when I got shot at the neck but Keith really makes my blood burnt further. I want to feel the pain, I want to shoot and finish off the game... That is what I tell myself.

I did not get much bruises, only a couple of them... Here, one on my thigh (by I don't know who) and one on my shoulder (by Hui Fang):

After the game, we went for dinner at Seng Kee Restaurant. We had amazing conversations there. IN a way, this game really brought everyone who are usually antisocial to work together and to talk about things that we never talk in class.

From left: Me, Hui Fang, Aeshprit, Prab, Kavitha, Kristen, JJ, Mark, Nelia, Yau Lem, Jian, Keith.
Missing:Siah Fong
Anyway, if there's a chance... I would love to go for a second round. 
Our players. 
Second Row from left: Mark, Nelia, Prab, Jian, Keith (the extremely aggressive one), Aeshprit.
First Row from left: Siah Fong, Yau Lem, Me, Duncan, Kristen, JJ, Kavitha
Missing: Hui Fang.

Here are some info if you guys wanna feel the thrill and join the game. 

Needies:
1. Bottle of water. (You can still buy drinks after the game, we bought 100 Plus RM2.50 per can)
2. Tissue or handkerchief. (Trust me, you will sweat a lot)
3. Clean shirt (For changing after the game)
4. Clean pants (For changing after the game)
5. Towel and toiletries (If you plan to bath after the game)

The thing about TAG paintball is, the people there are pretty good... Friendly Marshalls there, and the toilets are very big and clean. You would feel comfortable with the equipments provided too as they are clean and you do not feel disgusted. 
They will provide you with the mask and the marker, i.e: the gun. Others will be on your own cost.
There are 14 of us, we paid approximately RM100 for the playfield, the equipments and 2 boxes of pellets. If you want to rent the vest, it cost RM10 extra. But it would be advisable for first time players as it is quite painful.

So that's all for today. Feel free to drop any question about this and I'll try to help.
Rating for today's activity:
Adrenaline Rush   :  ☆☆★★★
Thrill                    :  ☆★★★★
Overall                 :  ☆☆★★★ (3.5 actually, but my soft Keyboard doesn't have the half star symbol)

Thursday, February 28, 2013

My Burger Lab


OK, it had been 3 months I found out about this shop besides Burger Kaw Kaw(located at Wangsa Maju, I heard there's another branch at PJ). Well, I'm always craving for something and this is seriously what I wanted to try... I had been asking my course mates about it's whereabout but all their responses are
i) Don't know la, where is the place?
ii) I usually drive there de wor...
And so, I went on to Google and checked the place. To dismay, no information of the nearest LRT station was there. The thing about me is I'm not from KL so I don't drive...

Finally, after 2 months of eavesdropping... I heard this one day,
"Eh, wanna go Burger Lab ah?"
"Want want want. HOw to go ah?"
"I heard there is a LRT station nearby there."
"Stop where ah?"
"Taman Paramount I heard."
Hmm... Taman Paramount... COol! now I know the place. All I need to know is how to get to the shop from Taman Paramount LRT station. So, in conjuction with my brother's off day I decided to bring him for dinner at Burger Lab since he's a total aficionado of burgers (WEll, I suspect he has a dream of trying every single burger on earth)

So at 3.30pm today, I texted a course mate... So in count of 3, I'm gonna reveal his name... 3! 2! 1! With a round of applause, let's welcome Dnesh Ong~! Well, this is the message he sent me just now:

  I'm like Okay... With this I should be able to find the place... I hope. So after class, I met up my brother at MCD KL Sentral and we started discussing...

"Eh, have you went there before?" my bro
I answered in a very sorry manner..."Er... Actually... No..."
"Ha? Will we get lost then? I need to catch the bus at 7.30 and it's already 5.30,"
"Well, no harm giving a try..."
"We better find the place, I'm starving."
Well, we took the LRT(just in case anyone do not know, it's KJ line, formerly know as Putra line) until the station of Taman Paramount.

"OK, let's go." I said enthusiastically.
"Er, bus... 7.30 need to be at KL Sentral." my bro reminded.
"Alright."
So I opened this message and started following the direction.
We walked up the stairs and undecidable whether to turn left or right and trust me, it is a dead end if you walk straight as written in the message. So I looked around and followed by instinct(I was know to have very good sense of direction). At the corner of the road, I spotted a traffic light signboard so I took the left turn and lucky me, I found the traffic light!

That is a very straight uphill road with loads of cars moving. So a friendly advise, be careful when walking along the road as traffic are quite congested in that area. So basically we can see the end of the road there and I was reading the message where my brother shouted, "Holy, there really is a KFC there!"

I'm like, OK... We're on the right track so we moved on... We followed the message direction and found the place... It was quite a distance from the LRT station... Say about... 15 mins walk...

Here's the map:


OK, this map sucks but it's not really that hard to find... Trust me... Don't worry and just walk...
So we ended lining up in the restaurant and started looking at the notice board full of pictures and money of other currencies... Well, of course the menu... They came up with fantastic names which will attract the customers' attention (Undeniably)... E.g: Water Balloon (Watermelon and Lychee fillings, I wonder what is the taste), The Hulk, Swisstake etc...

Since both me and my brother are beef "craver"(aka beef lovers), we went for the beef meal... I ordered a Hangover Burger which I saw received quite some compliments at the notice board... Here it is:

OK, here are the ingredients:
1. Beef Patty
2. Hashbrown
3. Lettuce
4, SHitake Mushroom
5. Enoki Mushroom
6. Maple syrup
PS: Mushrooms that came with the sauce is awesome...

It looks weird but it taste awesome... Hangover Burger, my first trip to My BUrger Lab... I would give a 4/5 and I would definitely love to have one more but it's too filling. Seriously TOO filling.

So basically my brother saw another thing which attracted him... The cool name and cool ingredients. Well, he always go for something which has cooler name and more sophisticating ingredients. So basically he chose this: Beautiful Mess ver 4.0

The ingredients?
1. Beef Patty
2. Sunny side-up (aka egg)
3. Portabella mushroom
and I can recall no more... Sorry if I missed out any ingredients.

Anyway, he chose this... And he was quite contented with the taste... And it is too VERY fiiling... *Burp

NOw, to the bill... Me and my brother with a side fries for me and a side fries +drink for my brother... Total is RM44.00
Well, some would say expensive... I would say it's quite worthy... Highly reccomended to try on their fries... With(it's a must) some of the sauce they provided... Trust me, it's one of the best... Especially the sauce... No joke.

Well, that;s all... He went back to work after that and I was left here typing this blog just to share with anyone who is interested in getting there and have a bite of this... Oh, by the way just in case you are curious why the bun is black in colour, it's charcoal bread...
The worker there are friendly, very friendly and very helpful... With a high speed wifi and a nice environment... Totally a suitable place for gathering and meet up... I would love to re-visit this shop some day.

Overall rating: 4/5 ☆★★★★

Monday, January 14, 2013

那天晚上……


13/01/2013 10:14

大家,晚上好。
其实会更着一个部落格说来话长……这片部落文章已经是一个星期前应该更新的,但是因为网络出现了问题所以迟迟没能更新……Anyway,在这里和读者们打声招呼:“大家好,我是你们的心情部落格DJ——艾微。”

一个星期前,就是在06/01/2013晚上8时整我到了LOT 10观赏了一部舞台剧……这一部舞台剧是我非常喜欢的一个DJ改编自一篇自创小故事的,名为《巴塞罗那的一封信》。看完了这一部舞台剧,心里多多少少有些感动也有些感触……上面这一支video就是当天晚上《巴塞罗那的一封信》的主题曲——《喜欢过》。送给大家……

那天晚上看完了舞台剧已经快接近10点了,我和刚认识的一个朋友分散了以后我就一个人慢慢地从LOT 10徒步到KLCC搭捷运回到家里……一路上,我试着找回刚刚看舞台剧的那一股感觉……我不想忘记它因为那一股感觉让我找回了一些我一直逃避的勇气,让我可以抬头看看前方的路……

(记录于06/01/2013)
走在人群热闹的街道上,我开始怀疑自己的人生目的是什么……我就这样,带着略微轻快的脚步踏上这一个回家的旅途上……和那一些迎面而来的人群擦肩而过,我开始问自己:他们每一个人走在街道上是不是都是充满着希望,带着期许过着每一天?

刚刚看过了彪民的舞台剧——《巴塞罗那的一封信》。在这一则小故事里有那么一句话:
放弃比坚持容易,坚持比放弃满足……
男孩因为坚持找到了梦想;女孩因为梦想而坚持。

我的情况很故事里的女主角差不多。故事里的女主角从小就很爱跳舞但是却让她的母亲觉得跳舞,不是一门专业。难听说一句,跳舞不能找吃……而我的情况,我……想念大众广播可是父亲却以“成绩那么好干吗年大众广播?”这一个理由,被刷了下来……

我记得在舞台剧开始之前,彪民坐在台上……他说,希望在今天看完了舞台剧以后我们可以带回什么东西……而我的确带走了一些东西。是什么呢?也许是一个精神、一个感触、一个感动、一份勇气、一个心态……一个让我重拾心情,坚持去完成着一个不喜欢年的课程……也许在今天晚上之后,我会意识到……人生并不是什么都可以顺心如意;不是什么事情都是完美、如我所愿的……也许我就是要经历着一些不如意才能找到幸福、梦想。

快乐要怎么得来?是不是就在于自己对生活的态度呢?我不知道。
前面的路要怎么走?我也不懂。
但是在怎么艰辛,我们身为人类也是可以熬过的……这就是人类的奥妙不是吗?
一个鼓励、一个拥抱……对于一些人来说真的不算什么,但是却在某一些程度上给与对于仍然在迷茫的路途上漫步的我一些精神上的支柱。

《巴塞罗那的一封信》入门票
我一直在怨父亲要我念一刻我不喜欢年的科系——法律。对于大人们来说,这一刻是多么的专业、是多么的神圣;对于我来说,它是多么的无聊、多么地烦闷而且丝毫没有放松的机会。但是也许只要我坚持、不放弃,毕业了也许我可以完成我的梦想:DJ也好、写小说也好、开一家在梦里时常出现的咖啡厅也罢……但是目前最重要的还是把本分做好,这是一个责任、一个对付母亲的交代、一份孝顺、让他们开心……

可能在某一些程度上我只需这样就可以让他们满足,让我的心里不会有愧疚感……但是过了今天我发现,其实一直以来我不断把责任推到他们身上……这也是孝顺吗?还是不孝呢?往好的方面想,如果不是这样我根本不会来到吉隆坡念书、更别说看什么歌舞剧、有什么领悟。如果不是这样,我就不会发现自己一直以来都错了……现在的我,应该先把书念好在为梦想打算。

人,因梦想而伟大……不是吗?

其实,我讨厌吉隆坡;我讨厌高楼大厦;我讨厌走在街上那一些数不清的车鸣声;我讨厌法律……对我而言,法律是让那一些有权有势的人用来霸凌那一些弱小分子的工具……
但是,不管是什么领域都需要法律不是吗?

刚刚在观赏舞台剧的时候,我听着男女主角的吵闹……他们的争执……眼角的泪水一直流、一直流……大概是因为同感身受吧!我不断的说是因为父母才让我踏上这一条我不愿踏上的路途,但是这样的一个做法我就像是把所有的错都施加于父母身上……这样的我不也同样地在用“法律”去欺凌吗?

看完了舞台剧,我惊觉我不可以在这样子活下去……这条路是我自己的,要怎么走也是看我自己……是要放弃还是要坚持也掌握在我的手中……无不知道坚持是不是会得到满足但是至少如果我不放弃,我不会觉得对不起我自己……

和最爱的DJ——《今晚最night听》的彪民
对于彪民来说,也许我就是和那成千上万的听众一样……只是一个崇拜他的小“歌迷”……但是他却不知道,他的节目、他的故事总是对我有辅助的作用……就像是他的故事《小小的名姓片》一样,他就像是小小……每一天听着他的声音在空中播出,听着他解读每一句人生的小道理……就像是解决了我一些些的烦恼……

那天晚上……我真的领悟了很多……
看完了那一场night听show,感触良多……也许是因为同样的事情也发生在我的身上还有很多青少年的身上……但是看完了那场show,我仿佛找到了如何面对接下来的事情的方法、心态、勇气和力量……
最后,也再次地……谢谢您,彪民……谢谢那一些成功让这场show上演的台前、幕后的工作人员……

Friday, January 4, 2013

渐渐学会了珍惜……亲情


大家晚上好,谢谢大家仍然愿意留守这一个一成不变的部落格。今天是2013年1月4日,接下来的几天,我们大家都会学习如何习惯地更改年份——把2012写成2013……

我是你们今晚的部落格DJ——艾微。
在这一个平静的夜晚,你的心情是如何的呢?在看着这一个部落格的事情,脑海里浮现了什么画面?
今晚的主题——亲情。

在打着部落格的同时,我非常习惯地就播放着反映我此刻心情的歌曲……而今天的歌曲就是影片现实的——张栋梁的《爸爸妈妈》。
我不知道你有没有听过这一首歌,也不知都听过的你是否会喜欢但是如果你想要更贴近我的思想,不妨试试一边听着歌、一边看看这一篇文章……

在我的记忆里我并不是一个要风得风、要雨得雨的小孩。相反的,家里的教育是:你要得到一样东西,你就必须付出努力和代价……我相信这是几乎每一家庭的教育吧!赞成吗?
小的时候我们时常怨说:“为什么我们要付出努力才能得到回报?为什么别人家的小孩想要什么就可以得到什么?为什么我就不行呢?”

我们小时候的妒嫉和羡慕带到了中学就变成了叛逆……我们在中学时期认为父母是最不了解我们的人,总觉得他们就是在阻挡着我们前进同时不让我们发挥自己的所长……我们会觉得和朋友搅和在一块总比呆在家里的好……总觉得……和父母有代沟,他们无法了解我们要的是什么……
没有经历过这一些的朋友们,我不知道应该说“恭喜”因为你真的是一个乖乖牌……还是应该说“啊?”因为这一些大部分青少年会经历的事情你没有经历过……

好啦!中学毕业了,会考过去了……是时候离乡背井,工作得也好、念书的也罢,反正心里的念头是:我要出去闯!在这一个小镇上住了10几年,我终于得到自由啦!
背起来行囊,我们踏上了那一片陌生又崭新的土地……
一开始,一切都非常顺心:交到新朋友、得到赏识、找到了快乐、体会了自由,反正这一个城市的一切就没有家里的好……但是,朋友里渐渐有人开始妒嫉你、赏识升级了,工作量也增加了、生活开始不如意了……每一天忙忙碌碌地,早出晚归……回到家里已经累得倒在床上……
在那么一刻,你突然地会感到孤独、寂寞……而脑海里出现的莫过于那一个从小到大长大的——家。

你想起了父母,想起了小镇,想起了家,想起了一切……在那么一刻就发现原来心里的自由也许不是自己一直向往的。人就像风筝,飞久了也希望停下来休息一下……而庆幸的是只要我们回头看就会发现……其实一直以来就有那么一条线系着我们,只是偶尔放松了我们没有察觉到……当它紧绷了我们又发现了……那一条系着我们的线就是那一个从来不遗弃我们的家人……

每当我听着一首歌,我的眼泪都会落下……因为当我自己离开了家里,我渐渐体会到没有父母在身边的感觉……
他们从来不计较我们做错的事情,反而在我们做错了成为我们的避风港……责骂是一定的,但是到最后他们还是会原谅、会为我们撑起那一片即将塌下来的蓝天。
他们从来不要求我们报答,反而无条件地、尽全力地为我们付出……我们小的时候会觉得为什么父母没有办法满足我们想要的,但是其实他们尽全力的在满足我们的需求但是却默默地、不吭声地……再怎么累,只要孩子开心父母就会开心了……

小的时候,我们恨不得快点长大离开家;长大了,我们希望我们永远不要长大想要一直当躺在父母怀里的小孩……
那么现在呢?
你多就没有回家了?多久没有看到自己的父母了?多久没有给他们一个拥抱,在脸颊留下一个吻了?
没有空,不是借口……回家吧!一两天也好,至少看看父母和他们聊聊天……暂时放下手上的工作……和他们简单地吃一顿饭,告诉他们:“爸、妈……我想你们了……”

今天说这一些是因为弟弟去外坡工作了,然后时常忘了要发个信息回家报平安……妈妈非常低焦虑:担心他睡不好、吃不好地……我听说妈妈因为担心他自己也睡不好,还哭了……
也许是他还小、也许因为他是男孩子认为其实没有必要向一直给家里打电话、发信息……但是他却不知道,家里的父母还有我这个做姐姐的天天因为他没有发信息都在担心了……
对他来说,这也许是自由……但是我衷心地希望他有遭一日会明白其实……
“真正的自由是当你可以在事业、友情、亲情、爱情之间找到一个平衡点……
真正的自由是当你一路往前奔驰的时候,你依然记得系着你的那一条线……
真正的自由是不管是好还是坏,回头时就有一个家在那里等着……”

是我变老了吗?还是因为我长大了?我离开家到外地念书的两年里,我渐渐学会了珍惜……亲情……

“请记得要常回家看看爸爸和妈妈,简单的一顿饭他们也开心很久啊!
随便聊一些话或随意呆在家,父母的伟大是从不要求我们报答……”
——————张栋梁《爸爸妈妈》

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

向2013打招呼


2013年1月2日00:07

在这一个平静且疲惫的夜晚,脑海里不断地重复着这一首歌:SHE的《触电》。
究竟是为什么?我自己也不清楚,反正脑海里就是不停地播放着……
没来得及在1月1日更新部落格,感觉挺遗憾的……但是遗憾终究只会是遗憾因为时间不会倒流……

从以前就很喜欢这一首歌,感觉这一首歌给我带来了轻松的心情……
轻快的节奏搭上了易懂的歌词,感觉整首歌就不一样了……

在这一个新的年份里回头看看在2012年的自己,发现自己真的浪费了很多光阴……
不行!不可以再堕落了!
在2013年,就当这是一个从新的开始吧!脱离了年少的时期,迈入20的阶层……(*泣……)
在这一年里,是时候反省了……为自己的考试做好充分的准备,不可以再偷懒了……
今年最重要的还是考试……当然还有父母和家人……

也许是自己渐渐长大了,不再对任何的事情有憧憬……
我知道世界上没有天长地久,所以在可以珍惜的时候就应该珍惜……
对于爱情,也没有了年少时期的亢奋和害羞……不再幻想什么轰轰烈烈的情节,只盼遇到一个可以接受我的一切让我做回自己的男生……
对于有情,少了那一份执着不知是好是坏但是与其勉强绑着那一些想要飞走的人倒不如就紧牵着那一些愿意留下来的人……

艾微希望自己在2013年里可以健健康康、快快乐乐……不要求事事顺心但是希望不顺心的事情到最后都绘画上句点……
2013,希望世界上的每一个人在避开了2012年12月21日——世界末日的“诅咒”和“传说”以后,都可以有一个不一样的开始……重新踏上正确的归途……
艾微再次希望家人、朋友、自己都健健康康、快快乐乐地度过2013年……


HAPPY NEW YEAR~!