It all started this year where I went into college and started off my college life. I try to draw a barrier between me and other people so that I won't myself hurt anymore. I wanna be myself but the reality tell me that I can't.
A month ago, things started to change. There was this group of friends that no matter what, we'll be together. One month ago, everything change. As usual, the one get left out is me. I didn't think much at first because I know that the more I care, the more I'm gonna get hurt. I just let everything go on the way it was.
And two weeks ago, I became totally invisible to them. I confronted one of them, and she said that I'm thinking too much. I persuade myself that I'm indeed thinking too much.
However, things get worse. Still, I closed one side of my eyes and did not care much. I began going back to the beginning... All alone. No matter where I go, I'll be alone.
Two days ago, one of them said something that really hurts me... We were supposed to have a gathering, and we asked her. SHe told me you wanna go u can go, since you like them so much. I got really shocked. Is her pointer on me or on the others. I guess its on me.
Two days ago, one of them said something that really hurts me... We were supposed to have a gathering, and we asked her. SHe told me you wanna go u can go, since you like them so much. I got really shocked. Is her pointer on me or on the others. I guess its on me.
The same thing happen today when I was in the library the whole time. And one of them that is not from Law class came to tell me that Law class is canceled. That moment, I went into total depressed and I went into rage. This is the first time in 3 months, my temper went wild.
I almost cried out, but I held it to myself. Its me who is too dumb to think that I'm still part of the group... Nothing is long lasting... As for now, just let things continue the way it is is the best way.. I think....
I almost cried out, but I held it to myself. Its me who is too dumb to think that I'm still part of the group... Nothing is long lasting... As for now, just let things continue the way it is is the best way.. I think....
The next six month, I'll be alone... So getting use to it now is not a bad idea also I guess...
And if any one of them saw this, just wanna say that I'm so Sorry for not being able to blend in...
