女生的标准

哈咯～今天艾微想要来大势宣泄一番……为和我一样的女生打抱不平。
现今社会里，有两种女生。
一种就是大家心目中的女生：美丽、大方、高雅、穿裙子、蕾丝、细心、有甜甜的笑容、长头发、体贴、温柔、娇滴滴的……
而另一种女生就是像我一样的女生：普普通通、行为大剌剌、爱大笑、对衣着没有讲究、粗心大意、潇洒
你是哪一种呢？
大部分女生会说，我是第二种。可是你真的是第二种吗？我不化妆，如果没有必要一定不会画；我衣柜里的衣服只有三件裙子，其他的都是裤子；我上班的衣服就那几件；我讨厌死了手提袋，麻烦、小小个的都装不下什么东西；我讨厌死了高跟鞋，又不舒服、又不方便；我讨厌死了裙子，走路要斯斯文文的、又不能利落整理事情。

其实社会的标准就是觉得为什么你是女生，你不能像别人一样：斯文一点、文静一点。整天蹦蹦跳跳的、这里一个伤、那边一个伤是怎样。我男朋友、我朋友、我父母，没有一个觉得我这个个性是OK的。每个人都觉得你一个女生，怎么个男孩子一样。

像男孩子怎么了？为什么女孩子就要斯斯文文的？
由古至今，女生被灌输必须要相夫教子。可是各位，现在是21世纪了……难道男人就么有责任教育孩子吗？为什么男人总是要吧他们传统的思想管套在女人的身上？不，应该是说为什么不管男人女人都觉的女人应该怎样怎样怎样，不应该怎样怎样怎样？
当一个家庭有了小三的侵入，大家都只批评小三说她不检点、勾引男人。难道男人没有错吗？这些东西一个巴掌拍不响的。在指指点点的过程中，小三被人批、正是也被人批说一定是满足不了自己的老公所以老公才出去偷吃。那请要怎样才可以满足自己的老公？男人出去拈花惹草，为什么错的都是女人？

回到这个话题……
妈妈和男朋友都觉的，你不能画一点装吗？你不能小心一点、温柔一点、斯文一点吗？
为什么我要啊？这样的女生满街都是，去外面找就好了啊！
我一直以来就是自豪自己不一样。可是渐渐的发现自己好像真的糊涂了一点所以想改进一点。可是不管我怎样想改进，我就是改不了。我很累，我时常问自己为什么我的个性要这样？为什么别人不能接受我就是这样？

为什么每一个人都要我变成那一个不化妆不出门、穿着高跟鞋、穿着裙子、提着小包包优雅滴踩着脚步前进的女生？
为什么我不能就是哪一个套了个T恤、短裤、帆布鞋、有着钱包锁匙手机就出门的女生？
为什么那些女生才是女生？为什么要我变成和他们一样？
每个人口里说着：我不介意，我不是要你变成和他们一样。
其实要求的就是那一些我们永远都做不到、我们讨厌的事情。

我不是要你精心打扮，只是要你穿着得体。怎么样才是得体？我穿着衬衫，工作裤，平底鞋不得体了吗？
我不是要你天天化妆，只是偶尔画一些。什么是偶尔？上班吗？我一个星期上5天班，5天是偶尔吗？
我不是不让你洒脱，还是让你多照顾自己一些。我怎么不照顾自己了？我受伤了不都是自己擦药吗？我发烧了，不都是自己吃药、喝水自救吗？
我不是让你温柔，只是让你不要那么大剌剌的。不大剌剌不就是要我去care吗？
我不需要你和别的女生一样，做你自己就好了。那你就不要对说我不够细心、不够体贴、不能照顾自己、糊涂、忘东忘西、不自律的这些事情了嘛！

我觉得社会让我讨厌我自己，我越来越不知道自己去了哪里了。
我做自己错了吗……？

天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（十）Day 4 Taipei－动物园、猫空

哈咯！舍得更新了！

我知道这样的开场白很没有新意，好吧！那就直接切入正题吧！

这一篇呢会比较闷，读了也会觉得其实没有什么！

因为我们早一天到了在九份——十分玩了一天以后真的有点累了，所以这一天我们都没有到哪里去……而且考虑到第二天要到宜兰去所以真的没有想要大玩……

好吧！姐姐承认咱们有点老了～哈哈！

为什么会选择到动物园来？哈哈！没有为什么，因为靠近猫空嘛！

后来盈说想看熊猫，所以我们就说：“好吧！就去台北动物园吧！”

就这样，我们的行程里set下了台北动物园……

那天早上，我们睡到9.30才起身。

慢悠悠地吃了早餐，再慢悠悠地搭上捷运到动物园去……

非常幸运的当我们去的时候正逢暑假所以有优惠……全票只要30NT！！

相较于在马来西亚看熊猫另外付费的RM50……这一个真的是太值啦！

进场以后看的第一只动物当然就是大家都爱的无尾熊！！！

盈说看到无尾熊算是了了他的一个心愿，我就说现在是看着被关在室内的无尾熊……总有一天我会陪她到澳洲去看在户外的无尾熊！

相较于马来西亚的动物园，台北动物园真的非常非常的干净……可是那里的动物却好像抬不起劲儿～

可是在动物园我们看见了一班小朋友正参观动物园，我们不禁开始回想小时候到动物园的时光～

走走停停的，终于到了熊猫馆～

看见熊猫啦！

那两个黑眼圈太可爱了！

而眼明手快的我也及时逮住了它看像我们的moment~

说实在的，看着那些在冷气房里的动物们……我们不禁有小小的羡慕～毕竟外头的天气热的吓人……

但是看见他们被困在里边，却又有小小的侥幸自己拥有活动的自由～

当天我们花了整整4个小时就只是呆在动物园里～

可是正要到猫空去的时候，突然动物园的广播响起：“因为天气因素，山上开始打雷，猫空缆车即将停止运作～”

当我们听到了这一个广播的时候，心冷了一下。

天啊！竟然会有那么倒霉的事情？

天空当时开始布满了乌云，雷电也在云层里开始炫耀自己的实力～

我们除了叹气也只能继续叹气～

我就说：“不如我们逛逛昆虫馆吧！如果待会都不开在打算就是了！”

大家都没辙了，就往昆虫馆走去……在昆虫馆逛完了一圈，再次回到动物园大门的时候我们收到了猫空缆车再次运作的消息！

当是咱们的心情可是太棒了！

我们离开了动物园就往猫空缆车的方向走去成功搭上了缆车到了猫空站！

建议大家如果没有惧高症就乘搭水晶缆车吧！踩在玻璃制的地板真的是太兴奋了！

价格是一样的，唯一不同的是可能要等旧些就是了！

咱们上的时候没有搭上水晶缆车，说起来真的笨到家！

咱们懵懵懂懂的以为水晶缆车票价会贵一些，后来上到了猫空站……管理员才说其实是一样的，就是等久些！

猫空的特色是茶间，所以如果可以的话就在这里品品茶、看看台北市的夜景再下回去吧！

可想而知我们没有那个能力啦！

哈哈哈！

都到这里来了，我们决定就在这里附近走走。

看见一条步道就往那个方向走去

一走下去，咱们顿时傻眼……

那里都是坟墓呀！

最怕阿飘的艾微瞬间紧紧地贴紧盈和婷，催促他们加快脚步～

可是走过了那一小段路，眼前呈现的是一个风景优美的乡村风景。

木栅、石街还有缓缓流水声一下子满足了视觉和听觉……咱们到那里的时候正是黄昏时分，红红的太阳倒映在湖上……咱们就坐在小亭里歇息，一边享受着轻轻吹来的湖风、一边听着渐渐响起的虫鸣声还有蛙叫声～那一刻真的是太舒服了！

由于天快暗了，咱们没有多逗留便往回走了。

盈在那里的一个小茶间买了包铁观音送个姑姑，而咱们也和那里的老板、老板娘、阿伯、阿婆还有高中刚毕业的小女生聊了很久、很久～

我们真的还蛮幸运的，遇上了那么好聊的店主。

老板娘看见引蚊子的我被叮了一大堆的包，也给我药膏让我涂上～

再离开猫空以前，咱们买下了一直念着的铁观音雪糕～味道有一点点苦涩，但是都和咱们的胃口所以

赞！

可是因为是茶制的，所以味道难免有点苦、有点涩所以我也不担保合大家的胃口就是了！

好吧！这一次我们学聪明了～

我们搭上了水晶缆车！

就像我说的，踩在玻璃制地板的感觉真的是太棒了！

比较可惜的是因为天黑了，下边没有灯所以也没有什么风景可以看！

大家搭上了水晶缆车就说，来来来拍照！

盈就这样大咧咧地做到了玻璃制的地板上摆好了pose!

在搭上猫空缆车以前就有听说，在猫空缆车上可以看见全台北最美的夜景～

也不知道是真是假，反正坐上去就是了……

但是

我记得当这一幕出现的时候，本来还在座位上的咱们都跳了起来……

是的，

跳了起来～

当是我们都马上拿出相机对着这一个景色大拍照！

真的很漂亮！

那一些灯真的出乎我意料之外的漂亮啊！

当天我们看到了夜景以后心情特佳，在仅有咱们三人的包厢里头开始大唱歌，会想起我们的时代的歌曲……

我们由《大海》和《梦醒时分》聊到《当》，再从那里聊到《我爱他》等等等等……

老实说，当天我真的很开心。

我们三个算是不同阶级的人，盈总是高高在上的高材生。印象中的他斯斯文文的……

而婷，虽然硬朗但是却也不是很多话的人……但是当天我们就三八地高谈阔论、大唱歌～

那个感觉真的太棒了！从猫空下来了以后，我们便回到了西门町。在到西门町以前，到了辽宁夜市吃了晚餐……

反正拖着疲惫的身子，我们说到西门町走走吧！反正来了那么多天都没有逛过西门町。

在出口6附近，我们被这个爷爷给吸引了……

他仅用spray can就可以画出非常精致的画。

大家如果看见他、喜欢他的画可以买哦！

他赚到的都是捐给山里的小学的……

我们当晚都心动了，但是没买下手因为第二天要到宜兰怕budget不够……

后来第二天晚上要去买的时候，爷爷却没有开档～

所以错过了就是错过了！

7月10日话费（NT）：

早餐－50

矿泉水－50

动物园入门票－30

PIZZA－50

铁观音雪糕－80

悠游卡充值－100

豆奶－20

卤肉饭－25

总值：375

当天的行程就在逛了西门町以后告终了……很无聊吧！

哈哈哈！

不过我们只真的要轻松地走一天啦！下一篇到宜兰去咯！敬请期待！

不知道从何开始？参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（一）出发篇
出发了吗？到高雄夜市去？参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（二）我到台湾啦！之First Night @ 高雄
想到旗津去骑车，和阳光、大海约会吗？参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（三）我到台湾啦！之旗津和大海的约会
在雨中和日月潭相会，让酷热转为凉爽。参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（四）我到台湾啦！之下着雨的日月潭、清境农场凉啊
想和羊咩咩玩耍？想看青青的草原？参阅：

天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（五）我到台湾啦！之和风车、羊咩咩、青草园相会！
想到台中一日游？不知道台北要住哪儿？到士林夜市吗？参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（六）我到台湾啦！之我看见彩虹爷爷了！台北别跑！
台北捷运玩透透——板南线一日游。参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（七）台北First Day！！国父纪念馆、诚品、101、华西街夜市
台北捷运玩透透——淡水信义线一日游。参阅：天秤座女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（八）之Second Day @ 雷雨中的台北
寻找《千与千寻》和《那些年》的踪迹，找回童年和初恋的感觉……。参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（九）Taipei Day 3 @ 九份、平溪线列车游～
踏进幾米绘本、进击的巨人餐馆、霍尔滋学院。参阅：天秤座女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（十一）我到台湾咯！之Last Day for 宜兰。

天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（九）Taipei Day 3 @ 九份、平溪线列车游～

在无奈之下，我把这一章节的题目写成了以上那样因为本来的题目实在是太长了……这是本来的题目：

天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（九）Taipei Day 3 @九份老街找寻千与千寻踪迹，一起踏上十分铁道寻回初恋的滋味。

哈哈！有点太长、又有点太无聊所以就那样咯！

哎呀，随便啦！

反正呢就是到九份去了～哈哈！

到九份的那一天，我们三个都非常早就爬起来了……想到要搭公车到九份还要在平溪线玩一天就要相当多的时间。

从西门到瑞芳本身就要一段时间，所以就6点30分就醒了～

在西门搭上了捷运来到了台北车站转到台铁到瑞方火车站去……

还记得那一天虽然是星期三但是台铁上却一个座位也没有……买到没有座位的票上了车才发现即使是走廊也站满了人……

不过想到要去九份就好兴奋好兴奋哦！在瑞芳一踏下车就马上到柜台那里买了平溪一日线的车票……那时候的柜台也是大排长龙啊！

排了30分钟才买到了这张一日劵……不过买到就好啦！票价一张为52NT，还算蛮便宜的……

我们买了票就出发到九份去啦！

要问为什么不先玩了平溪一日线？因为咱们的首要目的地是九份啊！

所以出发咯！

小贴士：不需要急着买，可以要玩的时候再买。而且好像早上比较多人……

要到九份去，走出瑞方车站正对面有一个站牌：就在7-11前面。在那里也会看见很多阿伯、阿姨在等车。和他们一起等车就可以了……

我到九份了！！！！

来到九份有两个东西要做：第一、寻找千与千寻的踪迹；第二、在人潮挤挤的九份老街穿梭。

公车司机会喊：“九份！！”

你就知道九份到咯！可是公车会停在公车站，你会发现其实那里不知道是什么地方……英文呢，人家就说：Out of Nowhere.

可是不要担心，跟着大队走总不会错的。加上九份是个旅游胜地，会有很大机会看到旅游团，导游就拿着旗子和大喇叭：“来，九份老街到咯！”

所以如果迷路了就跟着大队走吧！

温馨提示：如果不赶时间就慢慢走吧！九份的风景挺漂亮的，而且就分老街一路上都充满了古早味……我是指走在里面的感觉。

一路走进去会发现很多小小的古早为玩具、商品。

当然也不止这些，还有土产啊、和一些很有趣的东西。

像是旁边这个，那个男生磨的时一块很大块的花生糖。这一个是花生卷冰淇淋，类似马来西亚的popiah……只是里面包的不是菜而是冰淇淋、香菜还有刚刚磨出来的花生粒。我们都错过了品尝的机会（因为都不吃香菜）可是这一道小吃听说在台湾相当著名也大受好评，所以有机会的话可以试一试哦！

除了这个在九份可以买几包姜母茶、菊花茶等等。那里售卖的都是一包包即容的……里面做成了一块块。我们都买了……菊花特好喝！（咱们买了‘金满堂’牌子的）

除此之外，大力推荐罗记花生糖。那里的花生酥很好吃哦！不会太甜所以也不必太担心。

这一路走下去就会来到人来人往的楼梯，怎么能不在这里拍张照片呢？

九份有一点很可爱，你只要问：“楼梯在哪里？”

大家都知道你指的的哪一条楼梯。

要抓紧时机拍下照片，人来人往的都把整条楼梯给遮住了！

九份老街里就像是一条小巷，窄窄的……

和淡水老街比起来是完全不一样的风格……

那里售卖很多小时候玩过的玩意儿，也勾起了很多很多的童年回忆。

如果欠缺一双鞋子，不妨在这里买下一双台湾制作的‘富发牌古著鞋’ 吧！那里的帆布鞋都非常漂亮、价格和很合理哦！

来到九份当然不能错的另一样东西就是芋圆啦！

隆重介绍：阿柑姨芋圆。

这一道甜品可是会让你唇齿留香哦！

阿柑姨芋圆在坐落在一个相当隐秘的角落，不过也别太担心。就是沿着楼梯一路往上走然后就会看见一个大石头上写着：‘阿柑姨芋圆’，所以一点也不必担心找不到。

阿柑姨芋圆在门口那里点餐，然后一切都是self service。从捧餐到收拾都要亲力亲为哦！

不管是冷品还是热品一样都很棒，所以不必担心……放胆去试吧！

店铺里面有可以休息的地方，大大的玻璃窗旁边就是九份的海景。一边吃着冷冷、QQ、弹牙的芋圆，一面欣赏无敌海景可说是相当的享受啊！

温馨提示：虽然是可以慢慢吃但是很多人，所以如果吃完了就赶紧把东西收一收、把位置让出来吧！

我们一点才正式离开九份，所以也没有看到《千与千寻》里那一栋茶屋的灵感来源——阿妹茶酒馆。

身为宫崎骏迷，对于九份我一直有着非常梦幻的想法。我在想有天到了九份是不是也和《千与千寻》里一样，都是那么漂亮、那么奇幻呢？

事实证明我真的想多了。

没错，九份的确、实实在在地很漂亮……甚至有一股说不出的感觉孕育在那一条又一条窄窄的巷子中，但是人潮已经破坏了很多对于九份的幻想。

走下楼到公车站搭车的路上，我看见了挂满红灯笼的楼梯……顿时脑子里的灯泡亮了起来，我看见《千与千寻》的踪迹了……

动漫里头的路上都挂满了红红的灯笼，就像这里一样。

除了有说不出的感动，心里还产生了一些微妙的感觉……

我再次爱上九份了……

在公车站牌那里等公车花了相当多的时间，回到瑞方火车站的时候才发现前往菁桐的区间车已经开动了。

所以我们就坐在瑞方火车站等待下一班列车的到来。

我看见婷和盈听着歌，等着等着就睡着了。我也在听着歌的时候不停地打盹儿……

在马来西亚养成了警戒性，所以不管再怎么累都想办法不让自己睡去……

我不停地打盹一直到火车来到了瑞芳。

来到菁桐时，天空下起了雷雨。

走出菁桐火车站就是菁桐老街……这一条老街又是别有一番风味。据说这里以前是采矿的地方，本来打算来菁桐尝试矿工便当餐厅但是非常不幸的当天餐厅没有营业。

结果在雨声滴滴答答下着的同时，我们三个我在一个小小的屋檐下吃着刚刚炸出来的甜不辣和赤肉卷……一直到雨停为止。除此之外，那些想许愿的可以在那里买个许愿竹筒，写下愿望，挂在围墙上哦！

温馨提示：在菁桐老街漫步的时候小心哦！因为巷子很窄而且车子会经过，所以看见车子和机车的时候记得闪到旁边去哦！

来带平溪一日线，一定要做的一件事情就是在铁道上走走啦！

平溪一日线就是让大家寻回《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》的味道——那些年初恋的味道。

在菁桐，我和两位老婆找回我们初识的感觉。在铁道上拍照、等到下一班列车到来的同时，我们就坐在雨后有点湿湿的铁道上聊着我们的那些年……

那一些快乐的、不快乐的；矛盾的、果断的；疯狂的、悲愤的……

聊着聊着，列车渐渐的驶进了那老旧的火车站。我们搭上了列车，在10分钟后来到了这一条热热闹闹的十分。

十分的有一个slogan：

十分幸福

十分老街又是一条非常有古早味的老街……来到这里一定要做的一件事情就是：

放天灯

事不宜迟，我们来到了这里也点上了一盏天灯～

看见了吗？哈哈！我们的学业心愿：

大二顺利过关，明年顺利！

因为明年艾微如果顺利pass了，就正式毕业啦！！！呜呼！！

其实大家都是希望一切顺利好可以顺利毕业的！

这是我们第一次在同一张纸上写下自己的愿望……

相信我们在带着真诚的心让天灯往上升的时候，它可以替我们把愿望也带到应该去的地方。

在咱们的天灯放飞的当儿，天边出现了一道彩虹……

在十分放完了天灯，我们便在十分老街附近走走……
那里非常非常多的年轻人，结果搭上列车的时候……火车时特挤的那一种。
我们本来有意要在猴桐停一停，但是因为已经6点了所以我们也没有停就直接回到了瑞芳车站，搭上了下一班列车准备回到台北市。
结果好巧不巧，火车站的工作人员给错了我们指示，把我们推上了早一班的列车……本来有座位的我们变成了没有座位。哈哈！
本来还想说走一了天想坐一坐的……
后来我们决定在其中一站下车，搭上本来属于我们的列车……但是上了列车，找到自己的座位时却已经坐了人……
更好笑的是，坐在咱们位置上的都是老人家……唉～你说我们怎么舍得让老人家站住呢？
反正我们就这样一路站到了松山机场站下车。

来到松山机场站，当然就是逛全台北第二大的夜市——饶河夜市！

其实本人在整个台湾行程里，最爱的除了台中逢甲夜市就是台北饶河夜市了。
这里卖了各式各样的，而且种类繁多……
吃的、喝的、玩的、用的，应有尽有……太赞了。
可惜当晚艾微因一整天没有吃上什么，胃病发作也没有吃上什么东西……就只是带走了个卤肉饭和鱿鱼羹当晚餐。真希望有天还可以再去一趟，下一次去就要痛痛快快地大吃一顿！


7月9日花费（NT）：

面包－15

台北车站——瑞芳－75

平溪一日券－52

花生酥（3包）－390

姜母茶－200

芋圆－40

午餐－60

天灯－一人66（三人平分）

瑞芳——松山－40（松山——台北使用悠游卡）

卤肉饭－25

鱿鱼焿－50

悠游卡充值－100

总值：1113

这是在菁桐拍下的铁道……

拍下这张照片的时候，我的心里不断告诉自己：

铁道就像是一条人生的路；

天天有许许多多来来回回、反反复复的事情，

但也有许多意料之外的事情……

这一条铁路虽然有尽头但是来到尽头了就会回头，一直这样走下去……

不管遇到在打的波折，这条路就像是一条铁道一样……不管走得再远、再累，别忘了初衷、别忘了回到原点，找回最原始对生命的憧憬和热忱～

下一章是最后第二章，非常轻松的一天……

大致上是台北动物园和猫空的一天……

为什么那么轻松？因为在最后一章我们回到宜兰，所以不想玩的太累坏了到宜兰的兴致！

下期见：台北动物园、猫空缆车游

不知道从何开始？参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（一）出发篇
出发了吗？到高雄夜市去？参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（二）我到台湾啦！之First Night @ 高雄
想到旗津去骑车，和阳光、大海约会吗？参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（三）我到台湾啦！之旗津和大海的约会
在雨中和日月潭相会，让酷热转为凉爽。参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（四）我到台湾啦！之下着雨的日月潭、清境农场凉啊
想和羊咩咩玩耍？想看青青的草原？参阅：

天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（五）我到台湾啦！之和风车、羊咩咩、青草园相会！
想到台中一日游？不知道台北要住哪儿？到士林夜市吗？参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（六）我到台湾啦！之我看见彩虹爷爷了！台北别跑！
台北捷运玩透透——板南线一日游。参阅：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（七）台北First Day！！国父纪念馆、诚品、101、华西街夜市
台北捷运玩透透——淡水信义线一日游。参阅：天秤座女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（八）之Second Day @ 雷雨中的台北
猫熊、猫空，傻傻分不清楚：天秤女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（十）Day 4 Taipei－动物园、猫空 
踏进幾米绘本、进击的巨人餐馆、霍尔滋学院。参阅：天秤座女孩旅行去——台湾自助旅行（十一）我到台湾咯！之Last Day for 宜兰。

Just to talk crap

Thank you for tuning in to Feelings FM and I'm always the DJ, Ivy... Woohoo!
Well, today I decided to renew my blog post after being redundant for nearly three months (or more)...
The thing is, there are a few reasons why I did not renew the blog.
I know you are not interested to know why but I'm still gonna say it for the sake of saying it... Blek!

1. I was quite busy for the past few months
A few months ago, stress and pressure started to build... Why? It's exam period, duh. Student gets stress up for exams, especially us... Law students. There is like thousand of things to read and stuff into that tiny little brain of ours but the time is running out and our hard disk space is also running out.
So I did not have time to sit down and finish writing a blog post. When I meant finish, it means I attempted to write one but did not succeed at doing it. I just ditched all the post and trust me, all of them are still saved in as my draft post. LOLX

2. I'm just lazy.
Yes, you heard me right. I'm way too lazy to renew my blog. Partially due to exam stress, my brain wasn't really functioning for the past few months. Partially also because there is no inspiration to write about anything. I can blabber about my boring life but who would wanna see it? (Although it's not like anyone will read my blog when I'm not talking about my boring life)
Thus, I gave myself a three months break and get myself out of my blog. I rather sleep than think of what to write. So forgive me...

3. My life got boring.
Ah ha... OK, not actually THAT boring. See, I have been eating out quite often and I started to get addicted with Instagram. By the way, here is my Insta account, make sure you follow me: http://instagram.com/jzivy93
And spoiler alert: If you click in, you will see food and food and food. And yes, when exam periods creep in... All I do was Eat and Eat and Eat... So just enjoy looking at the food from my Insta and hey, stop drooling... Get a napkin or something, your table is all wet.

I think that's all... As to why at this hour of the day, I decided to resurrect my blog once again... There is only one reason:
I'm not going to have internet access for the coming two weeks...
And yes, I mean it. I'm going to be working at the top of some hills or mountains or whatsoever they call it (one of the reason I did not do well for my Geography). There, the telecommunication line sucks and they do not have Wi-Fi in the hostels. So I will not be able to get access to the internet for TWO WEEKS! Oh, even if you call me, you won't be able to hear me clearly due to the telecommunication problem. And ya, that is why I decided to just renew the blog to update on my latest status and...

Oh course, JUST TO TALK CRAP!!!

Anyway, Good night people. Since my holiday started, Happy Holiday to those who are also having their summer holidays. And to those who do not have one, happy studying and remember to tune in to my blog once in a while(to save your time, do not have to do so in the next two weeks).

不哭

其实今天选这首歌没有任何意义，纯粹只是因为它的名字——《相信》
最近我又开始犯了老毛病，我开始过度敏感……
我开始怀疑、开始害怕、开始不快乐。
我开始怀疑身边的朋友是不是不喜欢我，
我开始怀疑自己其实不过是他们可以利用的工具。
有事的时候就往我这里奔，每事的时候就当着没有看到我。
我最近还感觉自己渐渐失去了一个好朋友……
是我自己多疑了吗？
是，我不快乐。我想哭……但是我告诉自己，无论如何都不可以哭。
不可以脆弱，不可以倒下。
我感觉到非常不安……
可是又可以怎样呢？
自己本身就很多缺点，也不是每一个人都可以接受。
乖，不哭……一切会过去的，我告诉自己……
我害怕相信，因为我害怕被背叛……
但是我只能相信吗？
谁可以告诉我，我其实是可以相信他的……

It is A Pretty Awesome Day

Thank you again for tuning in to Feelings FM. Still as always, I'm your Feelings DJ, Ivy.
OK, the song of the day would be this: Counting Stars by One Republic.
This is my UMPH song, as in... It gives me the motivation to start something, like a starter for a car.
And particularly, that one line I really like?
EVERYTHING THAT KILLS ME MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE.
And never miss, I will be like OH YEAH~!!!! AH HA~!!!

Anyway, back to today's topic.
You know I had a great day from the title alone, well judge me then... HAHAHA
INdeed, I had a pretty awesome day.
This is a day where I like people around me, I like for the fact that the world is not as materialistic or stranger as we think it is.
I like the warmth people give to me and I can't help but smile to myself thinking of everything that happen today.

It all started with the same old boring day where I get out of bed and went to the library to study.
Exam is coming up in.... 76 days... What to do? Needa buckle up and start to work my ass out...
Anyway, my day started pretty bad.
I did not had a tight sleep last night, the photostating shop I use to go can't print my stuffs due to the CD Rom error, the other shop is gonna charge me sky high. So I did not get anything right and did not get anything done.
Plus, my voice is starting to change due to the hot weather and though drinking tons of water, it doesn't help much.
45 minutes LRT ride makes me feel like jumping out of the train immediately.
Some unknown weird lady slammed herself on me and did not even apologize, not to forget a man who is standing a few meters away from me and yet I can smell his body odor... Along the way I was trying so hard to not breathe. Have you ever get into this situation where either choice makes you feel like dying?
The library was pretty quiet and cool until a bunch of Year 1 kids came in and start talking as if nobody's business. They just sat there and start chatting so loud and the librarian is not doing anything.
Damn annoying day huh?

So I finished study at 4 and went back. The weather is okay so as planned I went jogging.
I've started this running thing for like one week now... And I love it because it's the only time when "study", "cases", "judgement", "judges", "academician", "criticism" can just get outta my mind.
During every run the only thing I can think about is to keep running and break my previous record (though I did not get a good timing but it's still an achievement to break them every time... XD)
Running against the wind is so cooling, I feel the pain in my leg and lungs as I breathe but this is the time everything seems so alive.
Since I started running, I have been taking out after the run from this stall. The uncle is so cheerful and kind...
Friendly nice uncle who always asked me how is the run and telling me all his stories.
I'm not really someone who knows how to communicate but smile throughout the conversation..
At least we know someone cares...

And today, I received a surprising phone call from one of my closest course mate, Duncan.
He was like, "Hey, Ivy. Where are you? Wanna go out for dinner?"
I got a shock of my life, "Hold on, dinner? I'm at my place ady la..."
And he thought that I was still in the library and offered me a ride for dinner since the place is quite inconvenient to travel around.
At that very moment, I felt warmth crippling up my heart.
I can't explain how much that means to me...
A lone ranger finally have some friends who care... Wow...
If he ever reads this, I just wanna thank him for the offer. Thank you for all the trouble and sorry for rejecting a favor...

The last thing before I start typing this is the shop I went to.
I ordered a packet of Chinese tea after the run, just to cool down my body with dinner.
This boss was asking me if I run often and he offered me a packet of herbal tea instead of chinese tea...
I wanted my chinese tea but he insisted in getting me a packet of herbal tea, and charge me for only the price of chinese tea...
He even gave me a super full packet of drink and give me some encouragement to run more and telling me it's good to exercise often...
As I was walking back to my apartment against the cooling wind, I smile from my heart.
At least we know in such a big city, though the general rule is that people are selfish and negative...
There are people who cares and who at times offer you some warmth...
You might think that I'm stupid to get all happy for all these littlest things but isn't life suppose to be like this.
Learn and appreciate from the very littlest things and start feeling contented and happy over small stuffs... Life would really turn out to be much happier this way...

Trust me this is only half the packet... It was full!!!! LITERALLY FULL...

Anyway, come to think of it... Though my day did not start well, it was a pretty awesome day after all...
And it's time for dinner... Thanks for reading my blog and have a nice day~!

Dropping By...

Well, I haven't been up here for quite some time now... Yikes, when was the last time again? Oh, 3 months ago... Great.

I'm you Feelings FM DJ, Ivy. Good evening and did you guys have a pleasant day? Oh, I didn't.
Let's see, 3 months, 3 months. So much to catch up, huh?
Nothing much happens actually, living life as usual. But it's getting busier, exam's approaching and ya know, law is a tough subject.

Hmm, well let's stop all the blabbering and the song I present to you tonight is Everybody Got SOmebody But Me by Hunter Hayes(ft Jason Mraz).

And the next version is a cover by Sam Tsui. Personally, I prefer Sam Tsui's version but the thing is... It's too sad. Need the ori to lighten up the mood a little.

I have been quite lazy to update my blog, putting it on hold for quite some time now. SOmehow I just decided to drop by today and just post something about how I feel recently and how my life have been.


Well, I moved to a new place in October and things has been quite messed up. No Wi-Fi makes life difficult, like EXTREMELY difficult. Don't they know that Wi-fi has been listed as one of the HUman rights now? Jeez. They needa do something bout it, man. Or else, I'm gonna bored to dead.

Anyway, after I came back to KL I 'm so busy with all my assignments and studies and catching up that I don't even have time to catch a breath. Need some Kit-Kat... But NO, no time for all the nonsense. Striking a balance between fun and studies is really hard. Making some time for my upcoming novel is even harder. Blogging... I ain't have time for that no more. Sounds pathetic right? Nah... I'm just lazy.

So, I'm changing for good. And duh~! I'm determined this time. Needa start moving my butts and don't just sit in front of the laptop and staring at the desktop all day. At least I need to do some novel writing or blogging. Hmm... Oh, and food.

I'm learning ukulele lately and needa slot time for that now. Jeez, if only I have 36 hours a day. Well, you know my way: Fun, Food, Adventures! What's life without all these and study all day? I've been quite hyper lately and can't really think straight and start getting sentimental and emotional like before, maybe when stress mode is on in say 1 month time? You'll see the depressed me again, I bet.

Good night for now and have a nice day tomorrow, rain or shine.
And for Malaysians, Happy Thaipusam this upcoming Friday.

I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. 
I believe in kissing, kissing a lot.
I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong.
I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls.
I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.

--------- Audrey Hepburn

只有自己可以给于自己的正能量

哈咯！大家好，我是你们心情DJ——艾微。
看会最后一片部落格文章才发现自己好久、好久、好久没有更新了……
哈哈！前一阵子忙于考试都没有时间上网，现在考完试了所以来更更呗！

最近我爱上了一首歌曲：David Guetta ft. Sia 的 Titanium。
这一首歌可以说是我的正能量的来源……为什么？看看它的歌词吧！什么是Titanium？就是华语所谓的“钛”。
这一首歌的歌词很贴近我们现实社会的情形，就像是说一个人对于别人的闲言闲语、讽刺嘲笑都免疫了……
俗话说：“人言可畏。”、“一传十，十传百，百传千，千传万。”但是也有人说：“嘴巴是生在别人身上，你管他说什么？”

我们的身边总是会有那么一些人，从来不会给与正面的影响。相反的，他们却想要看见你堕落而不断给你负面的影响。他们会故意讽刺你、刺伤你，而我们身为受害者当然大多时候就会被刺痛、被伤害。
这一首歌就把这一些负面的对话当成是子弹，而受害者是一个非常坚强的人……即使再多的讽刺和闲言闲语，他都不会动摇……那一些子弹射在他身上就会反弹……这就像是一个宣战：来吧！你们尽管说，你们那一些要伤害我的人都发射你们的子弹吧！而我绝对不会受伤害……

其实很多时候，我们会为了那一些事情而伤心、烦恼……但是这一些心情唯独自己超越了自己才可以渐渐免疫……
我们必须找到自己的正能量，因为那一些正能量只有自己才可以给自己的……
我总是忍着不说，忍着不哭因为那一些根本没有办法解决问题。但是我的缺点就是到一定的时候，我会爆发……以前的我爆发的时候会听一些伤心的歌曲，让自己更难过地哭个痛快……但是现在，我不想哭了……哭，是个懦弱的表现……我爆发的时候，就听这一首歌……听听歌词……
这就是我。这是只有我自己可以给于自己的正能量……

最后，附上这首歌的歌词：
Titanium- David Guetta ft. Sia

You shout it loud, but I can't hear a word you say,
I'm talking loud, not saying much.
I'm criticized, but all your bullet ricochet,
You shoot me down, but I get up.

*I'm bullet proof, nothing to lose,
fire away, fire away,
Ricochet, you take your aim,
Fire away, fire away.

@You shoot me down but I won't fall,
I am titanium.
Shoot me down but I won't fall,
I am titanium.

Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, stick and stones may break my bones,
I'm talking loud, not saying much

Repeat *@

Stone hard, machine gun,
Fired at the ones who's run,
Stone hard, as bulletproof glass

Sometimes that one person is more than enough...

Good evening, and I'm you Feelings FM DJ... As usual, Ivy.

The song of the day would be... Here, I Dreamed A Dream from Les Miserables, violin cover by Jun Sung Ahn. I hope you like it... It is a beautifully played song...

Today's theme as stated above and I know not much people are interested when they see my title since it's not like the others post... FOOD~ OKOK, chill.. Wait till I find something special then I'll do some food review again... I can't be posting MCD food review right? Haha.

Anyway, some thoughts have been bugging me these few days. Guess is the weather? Or maybe the stress coming up for exams? Or maybe I'm thinking too much? Well, I really do not know which is which really... I've been feeling quite EMO for the past two weeks and I still cannot get over it. I wonder why but I think I know the reason... I'm too dependent on others...

I saw a post from my friend's blog: Moi et N'importe Quo... Although the title is in French, but trust me... The content is mostly in English. Well, basically I saw this post and I smiled... Because at least there is someone I know who are not really close with me knows me better than my good friends do. I'm not trying to compare here but yeah... He still understands it albeit not much who I really am. 

Things have been quite bad for me these few weeks. Due to stress in examination and my own thinking, I get all the mood sways out of nowhere. This moment I can be super active, next moment my feeling was like sliding down the cliff. I do not know who I really am in my surroundings now as I don't seem to fit in after... well, almost one and a half years. Loneliness is always there and I shouldn't be showing and telling it to anyone but myself. 

Sometimes, we just need someone to talk to but it's just that no one is there. I just look up and saw that my friends are all ahead of me and I'm still taking my slow step behind. People think differently and people judge others differently. I'm not really the welcomed type of person and usually, people would just hate me from the very first moment they saw me. I just portray myself as being arrogant, maybe? 

Today, I posted a status on FB: "Sometimes loneliness makes you realize who you really are and what your surrounding look like... and then makes you feel that you rather be lonely..."

That's what came across my mind at that very moment. I'm afraid of a lot of things and I'm actually a big coward. I like extreme sports because that's the only way I can get hurt and reminds me that I'm actually still alive with all the things around me and to be contented of everything. I'm scared but I cannot find another way to push away the fright I have in me... 

I do not expect anyone to understand what I'm going through for two reasons:

1. Every individuals have their own thinking and no one would understand what others are going through.

2. Me, myself do not know what and why I'm having all the emo moments and loneliness and sadness.

No one understands and no one will... Sometimes I just feel sad for no reason or maybe there is a reason and I do not know why. 

And so, this should end because everyone would get bored and think that I'm a paranoid or so. The one thing that I always tell myself is no one will pity you and no one will be there when problem arises. The most trustworthy person is you and yourself. But sometimes that one person who understands would be more than enough and I'm glad that he described it well... Yes, I am active and lively from the outside but at the inside I'm a sentimental person... 

Well, life's never easy... Tomorrow is a new day and it means a new start. Neh?

Ready, Set, GO~!

A very pleasant night to those who are reading or wanting to read my blog. As usual, I'm your Feelings FM DJ, Ivy. Tonight's song would be Stay by Rihanna:


It had not been quite my time recently. I have been wandering around the maze of life trying to get hold of something which I do not know what it is actually.








I took this picture last week when I was on my way back into my condo in KL

When I saw this light shining through the gaps between the pillars, I stood there and look at the sunlight. It was very dazzling but at that very moment, it was like something to me. Something which I've always been searching for.

Since I came to KL, things have not been getting on smoothly. First I was ditched by my only friend in KL for I don't know whatever reason; Then I end up being antisocial in class, staying up all alone. Next I slacked in my studies... So it goes on and on...

In fact, things had been really depressing lately when exams are coming in 57 days and my room mate can never stop annoying me.

Well, I should say from this I learnt some real and true friends. I had a talk with my mom and she gave me another option but I hesitated. It's not that I like KL, in fact I never liked KL... But my friends here, the lecturers here... Those are the reason which makes my want to stay.

I remember one of my friend saying, "Ivy, don't go la!"
I remember one of my course mate saying, "You wanna transfer a? Why?"
I remember one of my bro saying: "You sure ah?"
I remember one of them saying: "As long as the problem is solved, you don't have to move right?"

A few of them volunteered to look out for rooms for me. I even met someone who told me today, "If it's really annoying, you can come over my place to study. My room mate is off till end of this month for study break so no problem. Just give me a text any time."
To say the truth, I'm touched and happy and glad and contented that I meet them.

I was such an antisocial person until I came into this class and I started having more and more friends. Some are Hi Bye friends, some I never talk to, some are study mates but nevertheless every one of them treat me well. I never regretted meeting them. I never regretted open up my heart and feelings to them.

I'm really sorry for the stress I've been through. Breaking down is so NOT ME, but I did last week in class itself. Some of them saw it but they gave me some support and ya, it was really helpful.

Today's status on FB：
I thank all my friends and course mates (this is targeted to them but here I add on, my parents and family) who are concerned about what I'm going through. Thank you for giving me advice and finding an alternative way for me to study under these undesirable circumstances. And I thank HER sincerely for inviting me over to study when it's convenient. Thank you so much. I'll try my best for the exam. Let's fight.

I learnt something... I learnt that there are people who hates me and there are people who loves me for who I am. I do not have to waste time on those who hates me... All I need to do is to appreciate those who loves me, those who supported me, those who accept me for who I am and what I do. Even one day things might change, there is still a 'once upon a time' leaving in my memories within...

Now it's time to get ready for a total boost and rush for examinations. 57 days to go and counting. Let's get ready. Let's pass our exams and meet again next year. Let's finish the whole course and graduate together!

ON YOUR MARK, READY, SET.... GO!!!

一个人的寂寞

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一个人，

苏醒在沉寂的深夜里。

一个人，

坐起身来走到阳台。

静静的，

我望着那一片乌黑的夜空。

今晚，

没有星星、没有月亮。

陪伴着我，

只有那一份简单却有说不出口的寂寞。

在茫茫人群中，

要如何去找寻那一个，

就拿一个万分之一的机会。

要如何找寻，

那一份温暖、真切的心。

要如何去分辨这个世界的真真假假？

尔虞我诈让我拿一个脆弱的心灵无法坚持下去，

让那一个已经非常混乱的脑袋，

更加晕熏。。。

这一个夜，一个人坐在阳台，

闭上眼，享受着微风的清凉。。。

沉思，

一个人的寂寞。。。

Which way to take?

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Often in life, we came to a road like this.

Standing in nowhere,

we start wondering which road to take? And where will it lead me to?

Often in life, we came into dilemma...

Which road to take?

We start to worry the circumstances and obstacle ahead of us...

We start to doubt our ability to overwrite fate...

We tend to feel unsafe and scare about our future,

Because this cannot be rewind...

Once we step out, there will be no return...

Now, I'm standing here...

In this crossroad of life,

Doing the same thing everyone had done before,

Wondering which road to take...

Everyone wants a better future,

But who can assure that?

We never know what would happen in the future...

But one thing for sure,

We would never regret if we did our best...

Which way to take?

I'm still in dilemma,

But I know...

As long as I work hard...

Everything ahead of me will be just fine...