Just to talk crap

Thank you for tuning in to Feelings FM and I'm always the DJ, Ivy... Woohoo!
Well, today I decided to renew my blog post after being redundant for nearly three months (or more)...
The thing is, there are a few reasons why I did not renew the blog.
I know you are not interested to know why but I'm still gonna say it for the sake of saying it... Blek!

1. I was quite busy for the past few months
A few months ago, stress and pressure started to build... Why? It's exam period, duh. Student gets stress up for exams, especially us... Law students. There is like thousand of things to read and stuff into that tiny little brain of ours but the time is running out and our hard disk space is also running out.
So I did not have time to sit down and finish writing a blog post. When I meant finish, it means I attempted to write one but did not succeed at doing it. I just ditched all the post and trust me, all of them are still saved in as my draft post. LOLX

2. I'm just lazy.
Yes, you heard me right. I'm way too lazy to renew my blog. Partially due to exam stress, my brain wasn't really functioning for the past few months. Partially also because there is no inspiration to write about anything. I can blabber about my boring life but who would wanna see it? (Although it's not like anyone will read my blog when I'm not talking about my boring life)
Thus, I gave myself a three months break and get myself out of my blog. I rather sleep than think of what to write. So forgive me...

3. My life got boring.
Ah ha... OK, not actually THAT boring. See, I have been eating out quite often and I started to get addicted with Instagram. By the way, here is my Insta account, make sure you follow me: http://instagram.com/jzivy93
And spoiler alert: If you click in, you will see food and food and food. And yes, when exam periods creep in... All I do was Eat and Eat and Eat... So just enjoy looking at the food from my Insta and hey, stop drooling... Get a napkin or something, your table is all wet.

I think that's all... As to why at this hour of the day, I decided to resurrect my blog once again... There is only one reason:
I'm not going to have internet access for the coming two weeks...
And yes, I mean it. I'm going to be working at the top of some hills or mountains or whatsoever they call it (one of the reason I did not do well for my Geography). There, the telecommunication line sucks and they do not have Wi-Fi in the hostels. So I will not be able to get access to the internet for TWO WEEKS! Oh, even if you call me, you won't be able to hear me clearly due to the telecommunication problem. And ya, that is why I decided to just renew the blog to update on my latest status and...

Oh course, JUST TO TALK CRAP!!!

Anyway, Good night people. Since my holiday started, Happy Holiday to those who are also having their summer holidays. And to those who do not have one, happy studying and remember to tune in to my blog once in a while(to save your time, do not have to do so in the next two weeks).

渐渐学会了珍惜……亲情

大家晚上好，谢谢大家仍然愿意留守这一个一成不变的部落格。今天是2013年1月4日，接下来的几天，我们大家都会学习如何习惯地更改年份——把2012写成2013……

我是你们今晚的部落格DJ——艾微。
在这一个平静的夜晚，你的心情是如何的呢？在看着这一个部落格的事情，脑海里浮现了什么画面？
今晚的主题——亲情。

在打着部落格的同时，我非常习惯地就播放着反映我此刻心情的歌曲……而今天的歌曲就是影片现实的——张栋梁的《爸爸妈妈》。
我不知道你有没有听过这一首歌，也不知都听过的你是否会喜欢但是如果你想要更贴近我的思想，不妨试试一边听着歌、一边看看这一篇文章……

在我的记忆里我并不是一个要风得风、要雨得雨的小孩。相反的，家里的教育是：你要得到一样东西，你就必须付出努力和代价……我相信这是几乎每一家庭的教育吧！赞成吗？
小的时候我们时常怨说：“为什么我们要付出努力才能得到回报？为什么别人家的小孩想要什么就可以得到什么？为什么我就不行呢？”

我们小时候的妒嫉和羡慕带到了中学就变成了叛逆……我们在中学时期认为父母是最不了解我们的人，总觉得他们就是在阻挡着我们前进同时不让我们发挥自己的所长……我们会觉得和朋友搅和在一块总比呆在家里的好……总觉得……和父母有代沟，他们无法了解我们要的是什么……
没有经历过这一些的朋友们，我不知道应该说“恭喜”因为你真的是一个乖乖牌……还是应该说“啊？”因为这一些大部分青少年会经历的事情你没有经历过……

好啦！中学毕业了，会考过去了……是时候离乡背井，工作得也好、念书的也罢，反正心里的念头是：我要出去闯！在这一个小镇上住了10几年，我终于得到自由啦！
背起来行囊，我们踏上了那一片陌生又崭新的土地……
一开始，一切都非常顺心：交到新朋友、得到赏识、找到了快乐、体会了自由，反正这一个城市的一切就没有家里的好……但是，朋友里渐渐有人开始妒嫉你、赏识升级了，工作量也增加了、生活开始不如意了……每一天忙忙碌碌地，早出晚归……回到家里已经累得倒在床上……
在那么一刻，你突然地会感到孤独、寂寞……而脑海里出现的莫过于那一个从小到大长大的——家。

你想起了父母，想起了小镇，想起了家，想起了一切……在那么一刻就发现原来心里的自由也许不是自己一直向往的。人就像风筝，飞久了也希望停下来休息一下……而庆幸的是只要我们回头看就会发现……其实一直以来就有那么一条线系着我们，只是偶尔放松了我们没有察觉到……当它紧绷了我们又发现了……那一条系着我们的线就是那一个从来不遗弃我们的家人……

每当我听着一首歌，我的眼泪都会落下……因为当我自己离开了家里，我渐渐体会到没有父母在身边的感觉……
他们从来不计较我们做错的事情，反而在我们做错了成为我们的避风港……责骂是一定的，但是到最后他们还是会原谅、会为我们撑起那一片即将塌下来的蓝天。
他们从来不要求我们报答，反而无条件地、尽全力地为我们付出……我们小的时候会觉得为什么父母没有办法满足我们想要的，但是其实他们尽全力的在满足我们的需求但是却默默地、不吭声地……再怎么累，只要孩子开心父母就会开心了……

小的时候，我们恨不得快点长大离开家；长大了，我们希望我们永远不要长大想要一直当躺在父母怀里的小孩……
那么现在呢？
你多就没有回家了？多久没有看到自己的父母了？多久没有给他们一个拥抱，在脸颊留下一个吻了？
没有空，不是借口……回家吧！一两天也好，至少看看父母和他们聊聊天……暂时放下手上的工作……和他们简单地吃一顿饭，告诉他们：“爸、妈……我想你们了……”

今天说这一些是因为弟弟去外坡工作了，然后时常忘了要发个信息回家报平安……妈妈非常低焦虑：担心他睡不好、吃不好地……我听说妈妈因为担心他自己也睡不好，还哭了……
也许是他还小、也许因为他是男孩子认为其实没有必要向一直给家里打电话、发信息……但是他却不知道，家里的父母还有我这个做姐姐的天天因为他没有发信息都在担心了……
对他来说，这也许是自由……但是我衷心地希望他有遭一日会明白其实……

“真正的自由是当你可以在事业、友情、亲情、爱情之间找到一个平衡点……

真正的自由是当你一路往前奔驰的时候，你依然记得系着你的那一条线……

真正的自由是不管是好还是坏，回头时就有一个家在那里等着……”

是我变老了吗？还是因为我长大了？我离开家到外地念书的两年里，我渐渐学会了珍惜……亲情……

“请记得要常回家看看爸爸和妈妈，简单的一顿饭他们也开心很久啊！

随便聊一些话或随意呆在家，父母的伟大是从不要求我们报答……”

——————张栋梁《爸爸妈妈》