The societal morale...

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Recently, many thoughts flash through my mind... It seems in vain trying to make things turn better... So I decided to choose the other way... Not doing anything.

Trust is a very important element in our lives. It bonds the relationship between every single human in this world. We need trust in a family, we need trust in a friendship, we need trust in a relationship, we need trust in a company...

However, the recent society is reflecting to us to not trust someone too much... Betrayal is happening now and then and everywhere. This moment he may be your best friend, next moment he may be the one pointing his finger at you saying that you did something wrong. This is the society.

A month ago, there is a case where a little girl in China was being banged down by a van. The girl is only 2 years old and she was crossing the road. Here is the video:

This 9 minutes video clip show us how cruel is the society these days.

The first van, its not that he did not see her... From this video, there is still enough time for him to brake his car but he chose to hit the kid...

No one gave any help... 18 of them... Until then the old lady sent her to the hospital. The sad thing is after this case is being broadcasted on the news, the old lady was being criticised by the audience that she did this just because she wants fame.... This is ridiculous.

Where is all the humanities of human? Human is thought to be the most humane and intelligent living creature on earth... But what are human doing? This is the society today... What we learnt in school, to be kind and helpful is only on books these days...

A dog protecting its friend... This is what a dog does... And humans? What are they doing?

The society today taught us how cruel is life. It is not as we think when we are young... Where everything is wonderful, where everyone can lives happily ever after. This not only happens this way, there are also other exploitation going on.

I heard a news recently... It is about an energy plant in Malaysia... the factory was known to be set up by an Australia company... It was believed that if the factory was to start its production, there will be leakage and the pollution would affect the land and people living in the area. Still, they are not planning to stop the production.

People are protesting and pressure groups from all around the world is criticising about this issue. But no action is being taken. It is believed that bribery occurs... But no one can proves this. No one... Malaysia, we are a developing country... Still under the process of development, in other words we are currently still under the range of Third World Country. Does that mean that The First World Country can exploit us this way?

Exploitation, Bribery, War, Discrimination... All of these are happening everywhere in our World today... What has happened to our society these days? It is sad that we live in a world like this today...

Boring

After a week of Business studies studying, I found myself in total bored...
Or rather say my brain is malfunctioning...

It seems fruitless even though I studied so hard...

Maybe I'm just not the study type of student...

What to do?

It is like a never end question right?

Still, as compare to working studying is still easier...

Well, its time not to let anything get on my nerves anymore and start studying...

But I'm just feeling way too BORING~~~ *yawn

Finish LAW~!!!

Finally, finish law test... This two weeks are really stressed out... While in stress, I always feel that there is someone there to back me up...

Thank you, dear friend. Thank you, mommy...

I missed him these two weeks... The feeling is growing more and more each day... I don't know am I right to have that feeling.... I don't know if I'm allowed to have the feelings... But I really misses him... Really do...

I know he doesn't know chinese... But if he understand, this is my message to him... 够爱。

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没想走你好像说过 你和我会不会有以后

￥时间一直一直变 地球不停的转动 在你的时空

我从没退缩懦弱

当我靠在你耳朵 只想轻轻对你说 

我的温柔 只想让你都拥有

@我的爱只能够 让你一个人独自拥有

我得灵和魂魄 不停守候 在你心门口

我得上和眼泪化为乌有 为你而流

藏在无边无际小小宇宙 爱你的我

&你听见了吗？我为你唱的这首歌

是为了要证明 我为了你 存在的意义

Repeat ￥@

爱你的我 不能停止脉搏 为了爱你奋斗 就请你让我说出口

爱只能够让你一个人独自拥有

我得灵和魂魄不停守候 在你心门口

我得上和眼泪化为乌有 为你而流

藏在无边无际小小宇宙 爱你的我 哦 爱你的我

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Happy Birthday to Me

Officially 18~!! I should've said it yesterday, but when I came back to hostel it was late at night and I'm totally sleepy... So I renew today...

Yesterday, I really had a great time with my friends celebrating my bday for me... Although no cake, it is still warm and I'm really happy... For the whole day, the person whom I hope would appear did not appear... The one I misses the most among the friends. I had a feeling that he won't appear as he did not have class yesterday... But still I hope he appear.

After law class finished at 3.30pm... I somehow felt a bit lonely... I miss my family... This is the first time not celebrating my birthday at home... And it is my 18th Bday~ I sat down quietly and started studying. All of a sudden, some strange feelings came into me... I can somehow sense that he is there. Just right around me... I stepped out the class and went to the library but he was nowhere to be seen... I went to 404 and no sign of him. Then the next time I want to go to 404, I was stopped anxiously by Abigail and Wendy...

I know they were up to something but I really don't have the mood. After class, I went to Ji Xuen's place where Shi Yi and Ji Xuen got ready and three of us went to Starbucks at New World Park. Wendy told me she will be going home at 5pm... And she left but when we went for dinner... She came and I got shocked although I knew she would come. THen when I sat with my back facing to the door, suddenly someone came and hug me from the back... Tightly... I was sooo surprise when I saw him... It was him... I'm not dreaming... They got me a teddy which is really adorable... AWWW~!!!

Then we went to starbucks after the dinner... Although there are some conflicts but I really enjoyed my night... With All my friends: Chia Siew, Him, Abigail, Darren, Shi Yi, Wendy, Joson, Jin Hee surrounding me... I really had a great time... Especially him... I always hope that he would appear... I always hope that I would be able to past my birthday with him...

18 year old bday wish? A-Lvl 3A*~!!! And I hope my friends, family and me myself will stay healthy and safely and happily... ^^

My last hour as a 17 years Old

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In 1 hour time, I'll be ending 17 years old... Is it a good news or a bad news? Birthday, is a day where we are born... It signifies the hardship of our dearest mother... Somehow on this day, I think I shouldn't be happy for myself but for my mother...

There is only a 50% chances of living on when a woman give birth to a child... ALthough the medicine technology is so much advance now, it does not mean it is an absolute that every woman who got pregnant may give birth to a healthy baby or give birth without any complications. 10 months of pregnancy, it is so hard and tough for a woman...

17 years, I have been living happily for 17 years. Today, I suddenly thought of my mom. Maybe its because this is the first year I'm not having my birthday at home... Somehow, when I thought of the hardship she went through... I just felt so lucky and fortunate and grateful to be on this world... To live here happily with my mom around me...

In one hour time, I'll be officially 18. This means that I'm a half adult... From now on, many things is up to me, myself to decide and work on... 18 years old means I'm no longer a minor... If I were to do anything wrong and got arrested, I can no longer ask for an adult beside me... 18 years old means I need to learn how to settle everything myself... 18 years old...

How I wish I never grow up... How I wish I'm still a kid that cuddles in my mom's arms... But the fact is, I'm growing up each year and this can no longer be changed. For the next year, I hope that me, my family and friends lives healthily and happily... I hope I get a good result, get a scholarship so that my parents would not have to worry where to sought the money for me to further my studies...

Happy Birthday to myself...

生日快乐 我对自己说...

Friendship is nothing much more than this

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Sometimes I wonder, what is the true meaning of friendship? Everyone says, friend is someone whom can company you through up and down... Happy and sad... It feels hurt when you found out that your friend keep you away when they know you are better than them.

Today, something strucked me suddenly. I get to know that there is a Mechanic class going on and everyone is attending and no one, not a single one tell me about this. Not a sms, not a phonecall... Nothing. I get to know from another person's mouth and seriously at that moment, it made me felt really hurt.

Especially Jin Hee, I found out recently that I really don't know her. I don't know what she's thinking and I don't know what is she up to. Sometimes after class, she told me:"I'm going back to hostel to take a nap, not feeling well." and the next moment I saw her with a whole bunch of friends eating happily and merrily at the canteen. What can I do? All I can do is ignore. When she approached me, I just smile and say its alright. What can I do?

She told me that she is the worst in class, but turn out I'm the worst. It just really make me pissed off. I felt as if you want anything just say, I can help I'll help. There is no need to act innocent and dramatic just to get the attention. I didn't mind her being dramatic but sometimes its just not the right time.

Maybe it is my problem, I shouldn't have expected too much. Coming to college, having a new bunch of friends make me lost my mind... I totally forgotten how to survive. Everything is about POLITICS. I totally forgot, we need to be strong and independent to survive.

From today onwards, I'm not falling anymore. Friendship is nothing much more than that. Betraying, trying to get attention, trying to be popular. I will not trust anyone but myself, no more. I don't want to get myself hurt anymore, not anymore...

When you believe

This song came into my mind when I was feeling down every time. Each moment when I was down and I was about to broke, I tell myself to believe what I should believe. In our lives, there are so much to achieve, so much to go through and yet so little time for us.

People says things don't come easily and there are no free things in the world. I indeed agree with that. Whatever we want or opt for, we need to work for it. Somehow, there are times we couldn't manage to go through and couldn't manage to find a way to solve the circumstances we are facing.

"There can be miracles, when you believe,

Though hope is frail, its hard to kill,

Who knows what miracles, you can achieve

When you believe, somehow you will,

You'll know when you believe."

Miracles, that is what we always hope for. When we are in nowhere, when we feel lonely and when we couldn't achieve what we've targeted... this is what we always hope for. People say, we shouldn't believe in miracles... There won't be one. Yes, we shouldn't believe in that. But if we believe, we have 50% chance of seeing that miracle happen. However, if we don't, the chances of miracles happening will be 0%.

At times, we need to believe what we can achieve. Long time ago, humans say that flying is impossible; but later people even fly to the moon. Long time ago, humans say that it needs a long time to communicate a message to another, but later people only need 2 minutes to send a SMS to others. These happen due to technological change of course, but somehow people believe that these can be done.

WHen you believe, you can do anything. Who knows what miracles you can achieve? But to me, as long as you believe... Even if you did not achieve what you aimed for, you will still achieve a miracle.