Love, does not always mean happily ever after...

Love, is a complicated game... Neither of us know that syllabus, neither of us know what is the next challenge... However, Love is pure.... It is a knowledge that we are compulsory to gain.... But some of us, just run away from it...

When we engaged ourselves in love... We need to have full preparation that it is not as wonderful as we think and it is not as in novels and fairy tales that the main characters will live happy ever after... In the process, we fall... And we need to learn how to stand up again... In the process, we got heartbreak, but we need to know that it is not all...

Love is about forgiveness between each other... Love is about the happiness that both individuals share among each other... Love is about the companion of the each other, holding each other's hand going through all the difficulties and sadness... Love is about communiction... Love is about the pain and growing up during the process... Love is about the bitter and sweet... Love is about sharing, not only the sweet and happiness but also the bitter and sadness...

However, things are not that simple when you really engage yourself in love, not yet a realationship... But LOVE... It will turned out to be a really complicated thing and you will lose control of it... somehow... Those who have been into love knows that it does not always end up in happy ending.... But ask youself, what is the real matter to you? Do you want happiness only, or do you want to share, to lighten each other's burden and to be tolerance? there are many question relating on this topic since old days...

Some people can run away for love... Some people can sacrifice for love,(e.g: romeo and Juliet... Which I think is way too over...) Some people can fight for love... Some people can be quiet for love... Some people can betray for love... Some people can do anything for love.... from this point of view, no one can deny that Love, is actually a powerful weapon...

But things never goes as you want in love... At down times, people would say... Let's just cool it off or let's just end it... But if LET GO and COOL IT OFF is that easy to say it to the other half... Well, you can just leave... Appreciate the love you had now in your life... Every people gives you different opinion and different things to learn... However, at times.... Letting go is just a way to love someone... It is sad to say that you need to let go of someone you love so much but if things just cannot go on... Or rather say, the other is feeling too hard to go on, at times we need to let go although we love him/her so much...

Love does not depend only on one side... It is a bilateral thing... If the other were to give up and you cannot do anything to help.... If the other were to give up and pleading for you to let go... Just let go... It may be hurt, it may be heartbreaking but sometimes it is a good way to make him/her happy... For me, I rather getting myself hurt rather than seeing him getting hurt...

Had in mind that LOVE is not about sacrificing, LOVE is about each other...
How each other feel, How each other trying hard to safe their love, How each other sacrificing a lot just to be together, How each other share their thoughts and feelings...
LOVE is something that cannot go on without trust... If you rather trust someone else than the one you loved, then love someone else instead...

Bare in mind that love is not all about happiness, and LOVE does not always lead to happy ending... But we can still live happily ever after if we make a change to ourselves by trusting the ones we love...

Sorry for not blending in

Sometimes it make me wonder, whether is there anything that is forever in my life... Recently, I knew that the 'FOREVER' can no longer be used for anything beside family love...

It all started this year where I went into college and started off my college life. I try to draw a barrier between me and other people so that I won't myself hurt anymore. I wanna be myself but the reality tell me that I can't.

A month ago, things started to change. There was this group of friends that no matter what, we'll be together. One month ago, everything change. As usual, the one get left out is me. I didn't think much at first because I know that the more I care, the more I'm gonna get hurt. I just let everything go on the way it was.

And two weeks ago, I became totally invisible to them. I confronted one of them, and she said that I'm thinking too much. I persuade myself that I'm indeed thinking too much.

However, things get worse. Still, I closed one side of my eyes and did not care much. I began going back to the beginning... All alone. No matter where I go, I'll be alone.
Two days ago, one of them said something that really hurts me... We were supposed to have a gathering, and we asked her. SHe told me you wanna go u can go, since you like them so much. I got really shocked. Is her pointer on me or on the others. I guess its on me.

The same thing happen today when I was in the library the whole time. And one of them that is not from Law class came to tell me that Law class is canceled. That moment, I went into total depressed and I went into rage. This is the first time in 3 months, my temper went wild.
I almost cried out, but I held it to myself. Its me who is too dumb to think that I'm still part of the group... Nothing is long lasting... As for now, just let things continue the way it is is the best way.. I think....

The next six month, I'll be alone... So getting use to it now is not a bad idea also I guess...

And if any one of them saw this, just wanna say that I'm so Sorry for not being able to blend in...

I'm fine

To those worrying about me for the past few days...

I wanna clarify that I'm fine.

Well, maybe things doesn't turn out as it seems to be,

But as I said, all I need is TIME...

No more worries guys,

Seriously I'm fine...

I may be quite emotional at times,

But thanks for all the supports and courage that you guys gave to me...

especially to those from my group: The FROZEN, and also my dear friend and bro: Yu Yang.

I will voice it out loud if I'm really not in a good mood ok?

No worries...

For the moment, I'm FINE~!

Enjoy it, you'll get it

It's been a while since I came here... It had been quite busy for the past few weeks... Exams, Studies, it really made my head blow...

A month ago, my first Business test started. After a week, another Business test. Later on the same week, we have Law Assignment. The following week? Law test. Later, Pure Maths and Mechanics. And tomorrow? Business test again.

Now, when I sit down and think of it. Time really flies~

It felt like it was just yesterday I started of with my college life, now my AS level Syllabus have finished.

WOW~! Amazing I should say.

Although it had been quite a pickup there, but still there are things which I don't really get it.

Someone told me before, If you trust yourself, you can do it.

When I started off as a college student, I told myself that I can do it and I will enjoy it.

Well, maybe that's what makes me get it... Coping up in A-Level is not easy and I'm way back. So, for the coming A2 semester, WORK HARD~~!!!

That's a promise to myself.

PS: For my dear friend, Yu Yang. Don't get too tense up in Matriculation. Trust yourself, you can do it. Enjoy it, and in the end you'll get it.

Someone is always there to light up you life

There is one girl that I wanted to write on my blog for a long time...

She is one of the girls I get to know in college...

And to say the truth, I REALLY admire and REALLY like her...

She is one of the craziest person I've ever met,

and mostly one of the most hilarious, adorable and in fact, coolest person...

When we are in a society, a community,

we will meet various kinds of people...

I said that Abigail is the one who helps,

while she is the one who will lighten up your every day...

This girl, her name is AIWEN... a.k.a Germaine(she says)

How do I describe her?

Well, I don't know...

The way she talk,

The way she walks,

The way she communicate,

The way she look at things,

The way she react to situations...

It is all of her own style~

She never cares what other people wants,

she only do things that she thinks its right...

That is her~!

You will smile when you see her...

Example of cases: 3, 2, 1...

1- Whenever someone yawn or blow or let out a sigh, she will twist her lips and say:"Yo... Smelly lo~!!!"

2-Whenever someone say her:" DOn't be so childish la..." She will reply:"Sorry lo, I know you very mature..."

3- Whenever someone drink her drinks using her straw, she will twist her lips(again) and point at the straw and say:" See ur saliva so acidic, the straw melt ady lo~!"

4- One time our Business teacher was telling her if she wants to be a police she need to work out... Since then, whenever someone asked her why don't want to eat or why want to go hiking, she will reply:"Neh, Teacher ask me to work out..."

5- When someone says that the person beside her is pretty, she will say:"SHe pretty, but I'm prettier..." And she will laugh...

To be the truth, she is really an optimistic person. Sometimes when I don't see her, I tend to miss her smile...

I'm just glad to know a person like her...

If I were to label her, I would say that she is the one...

"The One who Will Always Be There to LIGHTEN UP your Life..."

Law test OVER~!

Finally, first Law test over... After this, I can really focus on Maths and business... FUH~ After the test, I was alone in the hostel when suddenly someone sms-ed me...

Abigail... OK, she asked me wanna go out for dinner at 5pm... I was like sure, why not? Since I'm alone... Abigail is really a very nice girl... She has been really helpful with everything... She is NOT calculative at all... As you grow up, you will meet different kinds of people... Selfish, Caring, Trustable, Betrayal... And all kinds of people and scenarios... She is the one who is never ask what people gives her and what will she get in return...

Should say I'm really lucky knowing a girl like her in college life... She is a role model, a tutor and indeed one of my best friend... Sometimes when I look at her, it makes me thinks that she is the one which you won't hate...

She is always energetic, and have spirits for everything. She is that kind of person who you will want to be with... Anyway, we went out with one of her friend... And that is when Jon(a friend of mine) texted me asking if wanna join him and Roy(another friend of mine) for dinner... So we drove back to school and I didn't see Jon anywhere. At that moment it really makes me pissed off. PLEASE~ You are the one who wants to join us for dinner and you are not punctual?

Later we went for cendul and 1st Avenue where some conflicts occur... But at last it still came to an end... But everything that is perfect seems not quite so perfect with the countless intervention of Jon...

Abigail then later hanged out in my unit where I braided her hairs... Not really good at braiding hairs... Haha... Anyway, I like staying around her... Wanna say thank you for all of her efforts these 2 months...

Exam Day,,,

Today is officially my legal test... Although its just a small test, but it kinda tensed me up. Since last Thursday, I've been studying the same notes, same textbook for over and over again.... For this particular topic, I guess... I shouldn't have much problem...(I HOPE)

Something just doesn't make me feel right about this... It seems like when you got all ready, you'll feel like nothing more to study, but after you make a turn around, you find that you know nothing, That's the main problem here.

This topic is my best topic in the whole textbook. Maybe that is what made me feel even stressed up. Maybe I sh0uld just relaxed a bit and think back what had I studied. Maybe in some way a recall would be useful enough to release my stress a bit?

Who knows?